This weekend I am hoping to go to the Healthy Eating Show at Olympia.  I have been to other exhibitions held there in the past which were very good.Last Saturday I was taken to London to see the show Beautiful –   a musical -tribute to Carole King –  I thought the show was very good and my Mum wants to book again – the seats were very high up but I coped well because normally I am very afraid of heights but I had not taken the drug Clozapine beforehand so maybe this made a  difference. I have to lie down when I take this first of all and I cannot eat anything after taking this drug – it makes me feel dizzy but if I lie down for a while I feel better after some time.    We also went for a meal to the Opera Tavern in Covent Garden where they do Tapas.  I liked it very much – the food was good.

I have a nutritionist/trainer that comes every Monday who puts a lot of emphasis on eating the right foods.  I am trying to keep a record of that at the moment – sometimes I crave for chocolate but I know I must watch this now more than ever.  The drug I am on causes tremendous weight gain and I never had to watch diet before like I do now as I never seemed to put on weight before.  The last consultant psychiatrist did not alter the dosage like I had hoped and I requested this but no one took any notice.  I am supposed to have a new consultant psychiatrist but have not met him yet.

Today I have had a very nice day.  I went to  Bannatyne Spa Luton with my sister as she got me tickets for Christmas.   I had various treatments, sauna, steam and I went swimming.  It was a wonderful calm experience and I felt like I was in heaven.

Since coming home although I have not been out anywhere on my own yet, I have been getting out much more than before and I do not feel the severe panic attacks I used to.    I used to feel physically ill and make all sorts of excuses to avoid going out anywhere.  I am also doing more for myself but sometimes I do need a reminder.  The drug I am on does make me feel very tired and I get out of breath sometimes when I am out walking and have to stop.

This weekend I am hoping to go to the Healthy Eating Show at Olympia.  I have been to other exhibitions held there in the past which were very good.I will write about the exhibition soon.

I am hoping to go somewhere nice on holiday this year as I have not been anywhere in three years and away from my family.  Right now I feel happy. I would definitely like to this spa again.