Archive

Monthly Archives: July 2014

As you all know from my previous blogs Elizabeth has been getting visits up until recently twice a day from the Home Treatment Team who come and give her the Clozapine. Elizabeth has been calm about the whole situation and has complied with the drug and retitration as she was left to go down to nothing. The main concern of this team is about her taking the drug now but when she first came back from the care home it was a very different story. The taking of this drug needs careful monitoring which I understand as Clozapine is a serious drug and one which Elizabeth did not want to go on in the first place – in fact she signed an Advanced Declaration to this effect but no one cared to listen. This was not worth the paper it was written on. Social services previously got involved in trying to push the drug Clozapine when she was on Quetiapine and I was most surprised as they are not medically qualified. Yes, she was having a bad reaction to the previous drug and kept being admitted into hospital going back now three years or so, however there is not even a proper national testing programme available in the UK and I believe this is the answer as some people cannot metabolize the drugs (Elizabeth is treatment resistant) and this in turn could save a lot of money to the NHS. I read a heartbreaking account of a young man denied cancer drugs that cost c£2000 week yet much money is being spent on private sector care miles from home when local care fails about this could be associated with the fact that in lots of cases drugs do not work and can cause adverse reactions in people like Elizabeth who are unable to metabolize them. Clozapine is an expensive drug as the “treatment” requires close monitoring but not on this scale now like they wish to reintroduce. When other people want care and attention this is being deprived yet Elizabeth is being watched like a hawk despite the fact she is doing so well in terms of how she is getting on with everyone at home and her behaviour. However I do not put this down to the Clozapine at all – she was clearly unhappy in the past. I do not think it is right or fair -she is not a child but a 27 year old adult and I as a mother treat her as an adult. She is encouraged to do her chores such as ironing etc. and she readily agrees to this. There has been no clashing between us whatsoever and that applies to the rest of the family and I believe this is because she has settled back into home and family and is happy now.

Tonight we have had a visit from two new members of the Home Treatment Team and a friend was looking after Elizabeth when I arrived home from work. The friend told me that they wanted to resume the two visits which were highly restrictive and I know it is not just a way of monitoring the drugs but to report back to social services but none of us can understand such measures when there are no problems. They sometimes used to arrive at my house at 12.00 pm and then again at 6 pm, meaning Elizabeth could not have a life as no set time could ever be guaranteed and we could not go out anywhere. Suddenly after 2 months despite the fact they could see she has been complying with the drugs and they started to leave the drugs in order that we as a family could ensure she took them in the mornings, leaving just one visit a day in the evening by them. We just cannot understand why all of a sudden they want to reintroduce this same restrictive regime of twice a day visits. Elizabeth is not happy with this at all and neither are we and we declined to give the drugs back as after all it had been previously agreed to leave them. All they should be concerned with is that she is taking them properly which she is and we are having no trouble with her at all. It is not nice for Elizabeth that a team should wish to destroy the time she has to go out with various friends during the day. It is not fair on her. Yesterday it took time to get through to the Home Treatment team and I asked if they could call later but no one got the message they came early and luckily Elizabeth was just approaching the house with a friend who was kindly looking after her that day who recognised the team outside my house. So messages are not read.

Elizabeth is 27 years old and has matured greatly. She does not need to be treated like this – she can cook and look after herself in the home. This is like punishment and I know that they are checking up on her knowing I work during the day all the time but never once do they ask how we are as a family – not once does anyone offer help and there is no help on offer via the carers centre either who I also telephoned today.

When I visited the Carers Centre I was told there was a month’s notice for Elizabeth to get someone like a companion to go out with via their scheme. She has had this before and it worked out well. However when I telephoned yesterday her name was not even down on the waiting list and I was told she would not be eligible for six months for this service.

The best thing that would benefit Elizabeth is some kind of help to go out to rebuild her confidence as much as possible as apparently she was very much restricted at Cambian, not being allowed out to the corner shop alone. I can see that I will be the one who has to provide this myself and I was thinking also about a personal trainer to come to the house so she has at least some activities to do during the day. At the care home she admitted she did not feel too well and had spent a lot of time worrying about the family being miles away and how everyone was. She did not get out a great deal there either but that she explained was because she did not feel too well. Everyone has noted the improvement in Elizabeth since being home. She is often out in the garden and yesterday was taken out shopping by a close friend and had a great time.

In the evenings I take her out for a walk in addition and we have walked a long distance recently as I have had trouble with my car. Always to start off with Elizabeth feels ill and makes excuses to go out and sometimes I have ordered a cab as it is so important that she is encouraged to go out. Once out she is fine but she has not been out on her own at all since coming home and yet would know her way around this area. This is something that needs to be encouraged as being in a restrictive hospital environment has made her more disabled than ever because she now suffers from Agoraphobia and complains of dizziness – this is evident mostly when she has just taken the drugs and she has to lie down. She clings on to my arm when walking and I am trying to get her to walk on her own and encourage that.

I am so lucky to have so many good friends who have offered me help and assistance with Elizabeth.

Elizabeth is excited because next week she will be staying with the rest of the family for a week so I have informed the Home Treatment Team of this fact today. Not one of the three consultant psychiatrists responsible for her care were available to speak to me though.

Whilst I have reported this condition called TD I fear Elizabeth has developed I appreciate nothing can be done immediately but it should not be overlooked in the future and yet more drugs offered to counteract another. Thoughts should be given as to saving money to the NHS and these drugs could be affecting long term physical health. Also concomitant prescribing of drugs should be very carefully considered as some drugs may be contra indicated. Therefore I believe Elizabeth should see a neurologist eventually.

Elizabeth is here with me now and is approving. There are no secrets between us and she would like to comment now – she said she wishes there were the same members of staff on a day to day basis although I can understand this is impossible but she also wishes it to be known that she is not happy with the arrangement of Home Treatment staff coming twice a day and she is saying she has told them that as this restricts her life. She also says she does not like be questioned constantly and I thoroughly agree with this – I can understand when the questioning is regarding her health but some questioning in her own words is “intrusive” – I am in praise of her use of vocabularly – it could be that she is reading a lot more since coming home and I have some very good books here – the one she is currently reading is by Becky Shaw.

Amyway, I as a mother am delighted with the progress of Elizabeth and how we are all getting on together as a family. Things are different now but I just wish the care was humane in the UK like it is in Tornio, Finland – I wish I lived there and there would be open dialogue and psychiatrists that take a different approach and do not force drugs. In this small area of Finland they have 95% success rate and I hope to visit this country to see for myself and hope that one day we will have open dialogue here in the UK as this is what all the former patients and parents I am in touch with would like to see.

Advertisements

Today we have had a lovely day out in Margate.

Elizabeth liked Margate very much in particular the sandy beach – there were quite a few people but not too overcrowded.

We had lunch out and walked along the front after paddling in the freezing cold water. There was an abundance of lifeguards on the beach – however Elizabeth did not want to go further into the water.

It is good to be able to take Elizabeth out with us and not think of her stuck in a hospital or care home miles away. She has missed out on so much but now I am very happy that we can share out days out and hopefully holidays in future.

Elizabeth spent 2 months in Finland working some years ago and still talks about what a wonderful place and I myself have been hearing about the brilliant care on offer. I would like to visit Tornio in Finland myself – this is place where they have got it right unlike in the UK where wards are overflowing and the system that allows enforced drugging and restraint is abusive in my opinion.

Open dialogue is the way forward and because quite often carers are excluded by teams it is no wonder why things do not work.

Anyway since coming home Elizabeth is slowly but gradually regaining her confidence. Today I handed her a pile of ironing to do and she got on with it after all I cannot do everything for her. The only problem I have is trying to get her to walk on her own outside the house and she has a fear of falling – even on the beach Elizabeth was clinging to me but we had to go shopping afterwards and I asked for her to bring some of the shopping in and it was only a short walk from the car to the front door but Elizabeth managed although in the first instance wanted me to come out which I refused because this is step forward that Elizabeth managed to walk to the car herself and I hope eventually will be able to walk halfway up the road without clinging to me. I am going to get someone to take Elizabeth to the local gym this week and see if there are any personal trainers who can come over to the house to collect her once a week. The gym, exercise plus nutrition and plenty of fresh air is the answer. Already Elizabeth is looking so much better.

I have just finished housework chores and hung washing out in the garden. Fluffy the cat is underneath one of the new garden chairs trying to keep cool but Elizabeth is in bed. After taking the highly sedatory drug Clozapine she has to lie down and is in no fit state to do anything much. I now need to go out shopping as I want to do a BBQ and I am waiting for her to come with me. Thank goodness I have my car back from the garage but at a cost – a BMW should be reliable and nothing should go wrong with this make in my opinion. It has been most inconvenient not having my car and last weekend I had to go out shopping alone and get a cab as Elizabeth refused to come. Elizabeth is covered with quilt but she says she is not hot. I do not know how she can stand to have this quilt on her on such a hot sunny day but Elizabeth has complained of feeling cold and has sat in the garden with a thick jumper on before.

My younger daughter is out working – a lot of her work is at weekends. She at home during the week rather than weekends which means I see little of her.

This morning I booked tickets for what I thought was an event taking place this weekend but when I looked at it again Big Feastival is end of August however I really want to go to this. I have now booked tickets but they have run out of the VIP tickets and the only good thing re this was that at Taste of London they had nice peaceful marquees to retreat to. I really wish that Elizabeth could meet Jamie Oliver and I have asked if there are any special tickets I could buy for this and the reason I would like her to meet him is that once she had applied to his organisation for work – it was once this line of career she so wanted to go into but Elizabeth was not well enough and that is when I found out about the anti-depressant drug. I did not understand at the time that the dangerous Cipralex could have been behind the change of character we so rapidly saw and change of appearance from someone immaculate to someone unrecognisable (she suffered from mood swings ranging from suicidal thoughts to aggression and skin problems on this chemical) but there were other factors too which I cannot mention. As a mother I did not think that this drug could be behind everything we witnessed and trusted these doctors and I never thought that this drug could lead to initial hospitalization and a string of different labels and over 14 mind altering drugs – a revolving door syndrome of hospitalization and desperation. I thought counselling would be on offer but was shocked at hearing that Elizabeth would “have to take the drugs for the rest of her life” I am in touch with former patients who have also suffered so much at the hands of professionals who similarly believe that drugging is for life and with total disregard for physical health. How wrong they are as I have met patients who are now not drug dependant but they have struggled without proper backing and support in many cases.

Anyway I spoke to yet another consultant psychiatrist (now three of them) in the course of the week so there is a Dr A, a Doctor M and now a Doctor W involved in the care and Doctor W telephoned to inform me that Elizabeth was meant to have a blood test and I did not know because every week I have to arrange someone to be there with Elizabeth whilst I work. I did not know about this test so I frantically had to contact the two people involved in the care for that day to ask them if they could possibly take her to the hospital so that this test could be done. I had to go out of the open plan office where I work and make a phone call on my mobile to arrange this. Anyway that is all out of the way now but whilst speaking to the consultant psychiatrist I told her about the symptoms I had noticed whilst out walking with Elizabeth. I could not believe it when the consultant psychiatrist said there was another drug for this. I immediately turned around and said she was already on too high a dosage and I have had to turn to top professionals to get advice – up to date advice only to discover that 100mg is the therapeutic dose not 350mg – Also there was no way any other drugs should be given as they may do more harm than good bearing in mind she is treatment resistant. I could also not believe it when the consultant psychiatrist said that as she was doing well at home this was a sign the drug was working. OH NO IT IS NOT. The fact is Elizabeth is very happy to be at home having experienced the most shocking wards and to think I thought there would be better care elsewhere as at the time there were other factors why she needed to get away which I cannot discuss here. I have since discovered two areas in the UK where the care could be good (thanks to universities providing top0 class training of professionals) but if I was to leave the UK and go abroad the best area of all is of course Tornio in Finland where they have open dialogue – I hope to visit Finland in the future with Elizabeth to see for myself what wonderful care is on offer.

Some of the mothers that I know are going to the Mental Health Capacity Consultations coming up and I wish I could come but it will be impossible for me to get time off from work then however I have written exactly what I think on the website of the Dept of Health. Also I intend to personally write to HRH Prince Charles to congratulate him on his views on homeopathic medicine and I quite agree with him and Dr Walsh – I hope Mr Burstow has read the book I gave him but he has not agreed to give a room in Parliament for all the mothers to come and see him and discuss the way forward. Unfortunately I cannot see any improvements as there is NO CHOICE and system that endorses enforced drugging for MH patients and when I recently turned up at the foyer of the MH Unit locally to try and obtain the drugs being denied to Elizabeth I was shocked to see many of the same faces still on the wards and many came up and spoke to Elizabeth. All the more reason for there to be choice and there is no way on earth I would wish to see Elizabeth back on any local wards.

Re Feastival:

It would be my dream to meet Jamie Oliver himself at Alex’s Farm to discuss what I wish could be his new project and that is to tackle healthy eating under MH care alongside Dr William Walsh and to look at the effects of the mind altering drugs in terms of nutrition. I would like to tell him about Chy Sawel and some of the wonderful advice and knowledge I have recently gained. There could be many patients who will get better within a specialist centre which could lead to others being set up so that those who constantly end up on the acute wards can be properly examined not only to see if they have underlying physical health problems but also to look very closely at diet and nutrition as many of these patients are dumped into the community and left to fend for themselves without proper help and backing so there needs to be better facilities available and nutritional care being made available for those who are too ill to cook and prepare food themselves yet are going downhill because of neglect and these drugs can cause someone to have no energy, be incapable to think straight etc. It is vital that such patients are given a service providing proper nutritional care and possibly meals provided to them. When Elizabeth was in the scheme in the community many times there was nothing in the fridge and she had ordered junk food. Now at home I throw away all the leaflets that come through the door and think of nutrition all the time and do not buy unhealthy food. Elizabeth really enjoyed going to Taste of London but this will be wonderful as there is so entertainment as well and it will inspiring for her to attend.

As for this weekend I am waiting for Elizabeth to wake up so we can go out as I have things to do this morning however she is more than capable of managing on her own as I have seen – the biggest help needed is someone to take her out and I was going to take her to the local gym which is within walking distance and to have her hair done which is now practically back to its natural colour and maybe I can pay for a personal trainer to come round and collect Elizabeth during the week and take her to the local gym as well as young people who can go out with her places. She does not want to go out every single day but I would like there to be something in place and it has been two months and my own friends have been wonderful in taking her out places but as there is nothing provided I will have to provide it myself and discuss with Elizabeth what she would like.

In relation to the extra drugs the consultant psychiatrist wishes to give for the onset of tardive dyskinesia well before any more drugs are dished out a specialist such as a neurologist should be consulted and also I am now able to keep a watch on what is going on after the shocking discover that Elizabeth was on CONTRA INDICATED drugs. Contra indicated drugs were METFORMINE AND CLOZPINE and I have looked into matters further to see that only an Endocrinologist can prescribe this drug off label. It was immediately taken off when I complained. This is why it is a good thing Elizabeth is home now especially since there are three consultant psychiatrists involved.

Finally I have still not heard from Cambian – I am losing my patience now and will have to personally go down to the Head Office to see the Chief Executive. I am going to write for an appointment as I never heard the outcome of my initial complaint. My complaint is that the oils and supplements are still missing and now that Elizabeth’s possessions have come back from the care home I have looked for these items. They are nowhere to be seen. Now it is between Cambian and the care
home and the cost should be refunded to Elizabeth whoever has lost them and I intend to find out.

Since coming home from the care home it is noticeable that Elizabeth suffers from Agoraphobia – there are good days and bad. This weekend has been bad as once again my BMW car is back in the garage despite it being taken to the garage a week prior and no one could find anything wrong with it. The AA were called out but being without the car has given me some problems this weekend. On Saturday I wanted to go out and meet some friends and Elizabeth did not want to go out. Immediately just beforehand she was on the point of making herself ill. I managed to get her out by ordering a cab and Elizabeth admitted to me afterwards what a good time she had and that she was grateful I did persuade her to go out as she enjoyed herself. Today again without the car is a big problem. I had shopping to do and Elizabeth once again was making herself ill before hand and refused to come out with me. Sometimes even a walk up the road is too much and the team are constantly asking “have you been out today – was you out yesterday – have you spoken with anyone today” They also ask if Elizabeth is suffering from any side effects and she never likes to complain. Elizabeth admits that just before taking the drugs she cannot express her words properly. She has to lie down- she is on 350 mg of Clozapine but before this whilst at the care home she was being over drugged with other things on top – I do not encourage Lorazepam as this is a highly addictive drug but it is given out like sweets in the hospitals and a patient says they are stressed then Lorazepam is given or similar.

When Elizabeth was walking out with me last week and she wanted to go out just up the road, I noticed her arms were making strange movement and this I see a sign as the onset of tardive dyskinesia. It is only noticeable when Elizabeth is walking out for a distance and I am most concerned about this. These drugs are NOT designed for long term purposes and especially not for someone who is TREATMENT RESISTANT and she now has a diagnosis of PTSD which is backed by research. When there is doubt such as this about a diagnosis it is appalling that in the UK this is just ignored and nothing done about it. Well if there are such things as Safeguarding a patient then there should be such a thing as safeguarding in terms of their physical health and this is something that I as a mother am very interested in. There are people within a team that have no medical knowledge and yet are involved in decisions that can delay or determine treatment and there are such people with NO medical knowledge that try to encourage taking of drugs which is something that I disagree with. Only someone who is medically qualified should be involved to do with anything regarding the drugs and that person is the one who should make medical decisions and not prevent treatment going ahead or delaying it. Whilst Elizabeth can cook herself dinner, feed the cat and do basic things within the house the help she needs is not being offered to her and because nothing is being offered I as a mother am left with no alternative but to try and find such care myself and pay for it myself. I have been told to pick up Elizabeth’s possessions from the care home and I have had to arrange for someone else to do this. Elizabeth is excited today as her father has telephoned and her father wishes to see her for a week and I am very happy for her. The rest of the family can now see how well Elizabeth is doing at home.

Today she could have gone out fishing with a friend – she now has a licence but did not feel up to it. Today she could have gone shopping with me but the thing I feel will restore her confidence is young companions of her own age. I have introduced Elizabeth to my friends and people I have got to know who are “survivors” now getting on fine with their life. This kind of peer support is equally very useful for Elizabeth and I am finding that it is friends that I have everything to be grateful for as they and only they are helping me and Elizabeth right now.

Every day I have to arrange for someone to be round with Elizabeth but she is not entirely helpless. She is not a child – she has a right to be treated like an adult. She is not a risk to herself or others and not on a section or a CTO.

I hope the Department of Health take note of my recent comments as it is not right the way mental health patients are treated in the UK.

I got up at 10.00 am, took my medication and my sister drove me and her friend to Camber Sands. We arrived at about 1.00 pm and found a car park to park and my sister bought a ticket for £10.00. We straight away went to the beach. It was a nice beach, the sea was calm and it was nice and sandy. We went for a drink in the café first of all which overlooked the beach. After that we went to sit on the beach and my sister had made a picnic which included sandwiches, crisps and many nice things. My sister and her friend went to paddle in the sea whilst I sat and watched and it was funny to see as her friend pushed my sister into the water which was cold and she screamed and was drenched whilst I sat on the beach and laughed.

We stayed for some time on the beach and then we had to watch the time as the Home Treatment Team come sometimes early and we had to be back but my sister was very upset as she got a parking fine. As she was helping me out of the car the ticket must have blown out and she is appealing against it but she was quite upset at receiving this ticket when she had paid and now has to prove it but there are cameras in the car park but staff would not give their names – I hope she does not have to pay the fine of £60.

I had a great time today and it was so nice to sit on the beach and be out in the fresh air.

Sometimes before I go out I feel nervous but today I was fine. I do not always feel like this though but today I feel good.

I have today gained a sun tan. It was not overcrowded on the beach.

It has been c2 months since Elizabeth has come home from the care home and we are all amazed by her progress.

Close monitoring of Elizabeth has been undertaken as she is on the drug Clozapine was being undertaken by the Home Treatment Team twice a day. This arrangement was pretty awful as it meant Elizabeth could not go anywhere or do much at all. Being on Clozapine meant that strict monitoring had to be done and they have increased the drug to exactly the same amount as it was originally. I also feel the visits by the Home Treatment Team are not just for health purposes but a way to record and report everything that is going on back to social services. The Home Treatment Team work very closely with social services – one of their nurses said to Elizabeth “it wont be long before you are going back to ……………… (The care home) …………….is coming to get you tomorrow.” Well one thing is for sure it is not for them or for me to decide upon. My close friend and family were sad to hear these comments and to read them. When I am at home in the evenings I have heard questions as to “have you been out today” said more than once to which Elizabeth will say “no” when in fact yesterday she was out with me in the evening and we went for a short walk. Today we went out for a longer walk as I am without my car right now, hoping to get it back from the garage tomorrow. I was talking to Elizabeth the other day – whilst she has been out with various friends of mine and has even gone fishing and now has a licence, we discussed about her having young companions to go out with and I am more than happy to provide/pay for this myself. I would consider suitable someone who is studying nursing/psychology and this could likewise benefit them as well. A young person could take Elizabeth to Zumba Classes during the week or swimming or cinema whilst I am at work. A young person – not me – could be just the thing to restore the shattered confidence of my daughter who now suffers from Agoraphobia. She is alright once out but the thought of going out can affect her to begin with – this is why I think someone from a nursing background would be most suitable or certainly someone who understands and who is caring. I would like Elizabeth to have a normal life and I believe integration into society to be very important not just mixing in with others who have mental health problems.

Elizabeth is complying with the drugs, is not a risk to herself or others she is doing well at home and can manage too. She has cooked dinner, she has tried to tidy up and clean, she remembers to feed the cat and said yesterday of her happiness to be at home. I am not pushing her to do anything much but do encourage her to go out with me at the weekends and was astonished that on three occasions she has come out in Central London with me amongst crowds and was OK.

This weekend we are going to a very nice event but I am not sure if Elizabeth will wish to stay all day – I hope the weather will be nice for this event.

I am also thinking of the possibility of a personal trainer coming to the house.

It is help for her to go out that is needed as she can manage in the house OK.

The weekend has been very good.

Today I wanted to take Elizabeth to join a gym with me my car is still at the garage and so we have had to walk/rely on public transport but this has been good for Elizabeth as before going out I notice she is making excuses not to and is suffering a bit from Agoraphobia but after going out she is happier. At the care home I understand Elizabeth was taken out once a week – it would either be swimming/walking. Here at home Elizabeth is getting out in crowded conditions more often and without all that extra drugging and this is rebuilding her confidence. She has not needed any of the highly addictive Lorazepam and I have read this can increase some of the symptoms of dizziness.

Needless to say everyone is commenting on the fact she looks much better since coming home as she can get out more easily and we are not situated on a main road.

Elizabeth is not being deprived of the chemicals by me as a mother as the team would like to think however she has not needed all the other extra chemicals on top:

If this regime of drugging was to go on for much longer I am sure her physical health would have been affected. Already there seems to be a problem. On a hot sunny day Elizabeth is freezing cold – her hands are like ice. These drugs have I am sure affected her physically.

Clozapine 350mg – is a highly sedatory drug which is being plugged by a Dr MacCabe who gives a shocking presentation and audio “Start Low – Go Slow” and pushed by the Nat Psychosis Unit who offer £45 so I understand towards their experimentations.

Elizabeth has complained it gives her double vision and she suffers dizziness to the point she has to hold on to someone when walking out. That could also be confidence as well since she has not been out that much over the past years. Going out is essential for her independence and being stuck in can lead to Agoraphobia – signs of which I have seen since her return home.

Social Services care most about whether Elizabeth is taking the drug but they do not know the first thing about drugs themselves. This is why I have had to turn to experts who know the drugs inside out even better than GPs and psychiatrists themselves as these are experts who work on the drugs. If the team knew about this chemical they would not have deprived it for several days and I was told to get her back there to the care home “we are paying for that”. Actually it is the taxpayer who is paying and how much is the taxpayer paying as I would like to know this information. Well it is far cheaper for my daughter to be at home as I am asking for nothing. If the team were to provide anything, the very best thing they could provide is a bit of funding in the form of direct payments in order that Elizabeth could go out more often with people of her own age which could also benefit those studying for say nursing, psychology as they can learn from a case at first hand and see fully her family background whereas at present if they look in the files they are likely to see some very wrong things written about me for instance and you cannot erase anything written. The things written are not nice at all or true and you can only get a true picture when you spend time with a family and not even from the visits by the Home Treatment Team who report back to social services so I have seen in papers. THIS IS WHERE WE NEED OPEN DIALOGUE AND THIS IS WHERE THE SYSTEM IS FAILING. The system plays upon capacity and confidentiality but should be open and transparent especially where taxpayers money is concerned and include the family – Elizabeth was upset when told to choose between her Mum and Dad and a member of the team could not seem to understand that when I spoke to this person not long ago. This was why Elizabeth did not want to go back and also she wanted to come home after her discharge from CAmbian but a condition of her release by the Tribunal was that she was NOT allowed to come home – they constantly play on the fact I would stop the drugs or encourage her to stop taking them but this is without foundation at all as you can see the lengths I have gone to get this chemical Clozapine not being a doctor myself and having read about the dangers of stopping this – not that it is impossible but in order to do this you would need very very close medical supervision and support from doctors so to everyone who reads my blog THIS IS SOMETHING I WOULD NOT ATTEMPT MYSELF WITHOUT HELP FROM A QUALIFIED DOCTOR AND I HAVE TO SAY THOUGH THAT ELIZABETH IS VERY STRONG TO HAVE COPED WITHOUT THE DRUG FOR SEVERAL DAYS ON THEIR ACCOUNT.

Well things are working out brilliantly at home with Elizabeth and we are all getting on – friends come in during the week when I work and at weekends I try and take Elizabeth out to nice places.

Recently in Liverpool I was delighted to meet people who really wish to see change in the UK and I am delighted with my new contacts.

Everything is wrong when the law allows enforced drugging to someone who is complying with the drug and a law that allows professionals to use such powers against families instead of helping them.

Anyway I do not think I will be getting my car back tomorrow so we will have to walk everywhere again but you can walk across fields nearby which takes you to the gym and you can even walk to the town and I wish to take Elizabeth into the town today to buy her some things to go with her outfit as we are going to a very nice event next week.

I thank God for the honesty and knowledge I have gained from various Universities and this is where to go if you want the latest advice.

I now have an important letter to reply to and have been putting this off so I must now do this – the letter is regarding Elizabeth and I show her everything and I will most certainly mention the report by the consultant psychiatrist of many years experience with the new diagnosis of PTSD and recommendation of INTENSIVE TRAUMA THERAPY. The people who are ignoring this report are not doctors and even if doctors do not agree with the report they have failed to give scientific evidence of the diagnosis “paranoid schizophrenia treatment resistant” – this is just a label in my opinion when underneath it could be a physical problem that remains unaddressed. If there was proper tests before giving these harmful drugs then there would be a more accurate case in giving out these labels and treatment of life time of drugging however there is not and that is why things are not fair in the UK. In Liverpool there seems to be a lot of support for change – then there are the Professors who would also like to see change but it is mothers like myself who have sons and daughters affected who want something done urgently – there is no excuse to say these things take time – this is nonsense in my opinion – time is money and they have a duty to the taxpayer in my opinion.

%d bloggers like this: