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It is late now but I feel compelled to write a short blog as I have had another wonderful email from a former patient of the Royal Bethlem Hospital and his most shocking account of the abuse he encountered.  It is absolutely horrific and I cannot bear to think of my daughter in there right now.

I will be looking at this You Tube channel by LG tomorrow but I recommend everyone looks at this –  If there were lot of people like LG willing to speak out it is the patients or former patients the newspapers are interested in hearing from apparently.  If only people like LG were involved in a project like I have seen in America called EArth House.

 

This week I h ad a call from one of the head people of community mental health services who said the funding was coming to an end at Royal Bethlem.  She is well aware that this hospital have not done things properly but my daughter is on Section 3 and wrongly so as she is not violent or any risk to anyone.  So they are willing to consider one or two places I had in mind before out of the local area which I have not yet named.   However she also wanted the flat cleared in two weeks and I have no idea where to put all the furniture and things and need someone to help me so the first week I cannot do anything at all.

Anyway I spoke to Elizabeth briefly to say I had got a cd in London she wanted but it was a  brief conversation and I will visit as usual at the weekend.

Today also I had my weekly slot for a phone call which h as been going on for a while.  Whislt the Consultant Psychiatrist hides himself away this lead nurse has to take all the flack in his notable absence.  I obviously was not happy as it was just a chat – nothing more-  she did not divulge any information and still the sanctions apply for me to have only escorted leave which is disgusting.  This deprives Elizabeth of fresh air and already short staffed a member has to come with me off the ward.  

As it was discussed that everything is down to Rethink and not down the Consultant Psychiatrist well I had to ask Rethink to ensure they be present for a meeting in a week’s time.  Of course Rethink denied this and so this statement made in front of a friend of mine was no doubt an attempt by the Consultant Psychiatrist to divert from what is the truth ie he is saying REthink advise him and he has to consdier this before divulging information.  He had a chance to tell Elizabeth what tablet she was on and now I am more than ever determined to find out even if I have to appoint myself solicitors.  She has a right to know and does not even know to this day what he has put her on.  How disgusting is this!

Anyway did not think the phone call went well and I got accused of being threatening but if only the staff could try and put themselves in your shoes.  I do not want just a friendly chat but to be included and to be listened to and consdiered but none of this is going on at the Maudsley, Royal Bethlem.  You get no information and they play on the fact that a vulnerable patient does not want you to have sight of records or any information.  THIS IS AN ABSOLUTE LIE AS I OBTAINED MORE THAN 1 LETTER OF CONSENT AND THIS IS NOT SUFFICIENT.   MOST OF ALL I WANT TO KNOW WHAT THAT TABLET IS.   SO THE LOCAL MENTAL HEALTH TRUST HAVE SEEN AND RECOGNISED THAT THIS LEADING HOSPITAL HAVE NOT DONE THINGS PROPERLY – PROVIDED THIS CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST DOES NOT MESS AROUND FURTHER WITH THE DRUGS CAUSING MY DAUGHTER TO SUFFER PSYCHOSIS THEN I HOPE SHE WILL BE MOVED SOMEWHERE THAT IS MUCH NICER THAN A HOSPITAL ENVIRONMENT WITH PROPER SUPPORT IN PLACE. 

The email was so informative – it is very brave to speak out about such things when you have suffered tremendously.

I HOPE THAT THE ROYAL BETHLEM IMPROVES AND STARTS TO CONSIDER THE PATIENTS AND CARERS AND NOT JUST PLY SOMEONE WITH DRUGS AS THEY HAVE BEEN DOING.  I WOULD LIKE TO SEE TREMENDOUS CHANGES.

 

 

I am shocked and horrified at the way patients are treated at a so called top level specialised hospital where the current psychiatrist believes in starting afresh and they have put her on a tablet she does not even know what it is and now to top it all at local level the funding has ended and they want to end the tenancy where I have not been able to pick up her possessions over the past months whilst the local council have been paying around £800 a week so I believe.  I do not know where to put things and have just 2 weeks and my car has been written off – although I have another car I have not yet got insurance as this has been pushed up sky high due to the what had happened when I put my car in for the keys to be sorted out and they brought it back in a state where it would not even start!  Now I have been offered £50.

This is nothing though to the treatment of both mental health services locally and at the Royal Bethlem.

The newspapers should feature this but many of them seem afraid and I am shocked at just how widespread this awful treatment of mental health patients is.

 

 

I turned up around 2 pm on the ward.  It was a beautiful day today but the patients were stuck indoors.  The staff were busy typing on their computers and I asked to take Elizabeth off the ward but was told I should return sharply.   They were apparently short staffed.  Well I took her out for a meal with this member of staff tagging along and a longstanding family friend.  Elizabeth was very quiet throughout this time but at least she got to go out as yesterday she had no fresh air whatsoever and the ward is stuffy and there is nothing to do but watch TV or aimlessly walk up and down.  Of course the Wii games could not be used as an electrician was needed. 

Anyway in between time I did a lot of writing as I believe this is punishment dished out to me personally as I have quite rightly so been outspoken.  There is no way my daughter should be punished by this Consultant Psychiatrist or be drugged up to her neck on a tablet she does not even know.   I AM INVOLVING RETHINK IN THIS AS HE SAID RETHINK ARE THE ONES WHO TELL HIM IT IS AGAINST MY DAUGHTER’S WISHES TO SHARE INFORMATION IN THE FILES.    ANYWAY I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON AT THE ROYAL BETHLEM HOSPITAL.  It is not the fault of the nurses however there is something wrong with this Consultant Psychiatrist himself in my opinion – what is in his head to do this when there is no excuse for this behaviour.  It is childish and spiteful and it is against human rights.  I NOW WANT EVERY INSPECTOR DOWN TO THAT WARD AS THIS KIND OF BEHAVIOUR SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO CONTINUE.

All I have done is give brilliant information on how harmful the drugs are for a start as naturally I want the  minimal of medication and she was promised a drug free period and I want some answers here as to why this has not been done.

Whether he likes it or not I am still the nearest relative and as the nearest relative I have a right to know if something has happened to my daughter and an explanation.   I intend to keep visiting every single week so that I can keep an eye on matters.  I insist that Elizabeth comes off the ward to get some fresh air and she is MORE THAN ENTITLED.   THIS IS ABSOLUTE ABUSE IN MY OPINION.

 

Not allowed to take Elizabeth off the ward between 1 – 2 and this must be escorted as ordered by the Consultant Psychiatrist.

I hereby invite this Consultant Psychiatrist to give his reasons WHY to the world.   I have nothing to hide.  I have had every security test done.  I am of no risk to my daughter.  She is of NO risk to the public –  it is causing problems on the ward when a member of staff has to be there to accompany and I go at the weekends.   It is staff changeover between 1 – 2 so noone is available to accompany me.   I am being treated like a criminal yet was training to be a police officer.  I am now thinking of volunteering for the local police as I feel so sorry for the patients being couped up on such wards and treated like nothing.  The nursing staff are not to blame –  this is the fault of the person in charge – the Consultant Psychiatrist and I would welcome him speaking to all the newspapers and media on why he thinks I should be escorted everywhere with my own daughter and why he is depriving her of fresh air.  IT IS EXTREMELY SPITEFUL to do such a thing.   The staff have to obey his orders no doubt and I have heard there is staff absences causing things to be put on hold such as the weekend outings.    Maybe if I am allowed to volunteer at local level with the police then something can be done for these poor patients couped up on such a ward like a prison camp with nothing to do at weekends and can only go out when staff are available.   WHAT KIND OF CARE IS THIS.

I have had to reschedule the day to turn up later in the afternoon to coincide with when staff are available to escort me as I cannot be trusted apparently.

This professional is no doubt enjoying the company of his family yet he is trying to tear apart mine and I have nothing to hide – in fact I would welcome his comments to the world.  I would welcome the world to judge me in turn.

I would say that the reason this is happening is because I have been outspoken in terms of what I see as abuse going on – care should not be all about drugs and a patient should be listened to and not forced to take drugs against their wishes.   Orthomolecular care should be given if needed as an alternative and this does not mean just COMING OFF MEDICATION.  This means being on the minimal rather than the maximum of drugs and this doctor has put my daughter on a drug and refuses to let her speak at the recent meeting even when I offered to go out of the room.  She is none the wiser as to what tablet he has given her.   SHE COULD DIE AS A RESULT OF THE HIGH AMOUNT OF DRUGS GIVEN AND I WANT EVERYONE TO BE ACCOUNTABLE.

 

I agree with everything you have said in your recent comment.

Funnily enough my daughter perceptively commented that she thought the consultant psychiatrist was “on something”.    He must be very paranoid in order to only allow 1 hour escorted leave.   Thanks to me attending the meeting with a longstanding family friend this escorted leave has been extended to 2 hours but on the Friday probably because of how busy they were a member of staff was only able to come out for 1.5 hrs.  

Today I typed the minutes of the meeting to ensure that the team got a very accurate copy seeing as I never get a copy of their minutes and the excuse by the consultant psychiatrist is that he wants to concentrate on the care.  Well where is he most of the time?  He is not watching my daughter on a day to day basis.  When I have asked to speak to him he is never around.    This Consultant Psychiatrist wants to “start afresh”.  I have commented in my minutes that this is WRONG – TOTALLY WRONG.   In order to come up with any diagnosis I believe that you need to look thoroughly at what has happened in the past.  All he keeps going on about is how did she do at school.  I have commented in the minutes that this is ridiculous!!   The change in behaviour backed by the close family friend who has known Elizabeth a long time points to when she took herself off 30mg of Cipralix.   She had been on this terrible drug for a while and it brought her face up in loads of sores and led to itchiness.   It was around this time and whilst taking this drug that the whole family noticed a huge change in her.    Thanks to reading the book Prozac Pandora Panacea I now recognise what the initial cause of this behaviour was down to.   I now know how very dangerous these drugs are and I wish so much that I had done all this research from the beginning.  The change in behaviour unfortunately led her being referred to mental health services and I put my trust in these professionals but little did I know at the time that all they did was just push drug after drug after drug.  This is the treatment in their eyes and it is a highly profitable treatment for the pharmaceutical industry. 

I went to visit Elizabeth today and she looked very forlorn.   I believe this Consultant Psychiatrist is using my daughter to get back at me and I h ave mentioned this in the minutes.   He has put full emphasis on REthink by saying he goes by what they recommend or words to that effect.  Now it is down to Rethink as the Consultant Psychiatrist would not give any information even when I offered to leave the room as to what tablet he has given m y daughter.  I believe this is in breach of human rights – she has a right to know and I think he does not want me or the rest of the family to know and is worried about what she might say.   This is why I have to be escorted everywhere like a small child with my own daughter.   WHAT KIND OF CARE IS THIS – WHAT KIND OF TREATMENT IS THIS?   THIS IS NOT KIND OR NICE TREATMENT TO KEEP SOMEONE STUCK ON THE WARD WHEN IT IS NICE OUTSIDE AND DEPRIVE HER FROM GETTING FRESH AIR.  ELIZABETH HAS NOT BEEN OUT AT ALL TODAY.  WHILST HE IS ENJOYING TIME WITH HIS FAMILY ELIZABETH IS STUCK ON THE WARD WITH NOTHING MUCH TO DO.

Today I took the Wii and games to the ward for the patients but apparently an electrician has to test everything and i was told not to leave anything there on the ward as staff would be told off.   THIS IS WORSE THAN BEING AT SCHOOL IN MY OPINION.  I AM SHOCKED THAT THIS CAN GO ON IN A CIVILISED COUNTRY IN THIS DAY AND AGE.

Anyway I handed in the Minutes and there were so many people there at the meeting I could not remember everyone – how daunting this must be to my daughter especially when no advocate is there half the time as recommended in NICE guidelines.   It is no wonder she does not like Fridays.  

Anyway seeing as the Consultant Psychiatrist stubbornly refused to give ANY information on what drug she is on and also how long he is going to impose sanctions like 1 or 2 hours only escorted leave.  I have told him in the Minutes I am reconsidering a voluntary role with the Police again in the Kent area as I feel sorry for the staff in this situation as they are already short staffed as it is and the whole thing is both childish and immature on his part and abuse to my daughter.  WHAT RIGHT DOES HE HAVE TO PREVENT ME FROM TAKING HER TO SHOPPING OR CINEMA OR ANYWHERE ELSE THAT TAKES LONGER THAN JUST 2 HOURS WHEN THERE IS NOTHING TO DO ON THE WARD FOR A START.  IT IS NOT AS IF MY VISIT IS CLASHING WITH ANYTHING GOING ON THERE ON THE WARD.  HE IS LAYING DOWN THE LAW IN SUCH A WAY THAT HE IS ABUSING ELIZABETH’S HUMAN RIGHTS AND WHAT ABOUT THE OTHER PATIENTS – WHAT ABOUT THEIR RIGHTS AS WELL.

IT IS NOT AS THOUGH ELIZABETH IS OF ANY DANGER WHATSOEVER TO ANYONE AND NOW I TAKE THE VIEW THAT IF THE WHOLE TEAM LOYALLY AGREE WITH THIS DECISION THEY ARE ALL AS BAD AS ONE ANOTHER.  IT TAKES SOMEONE DECENT TO STAND UP TO THIS KIND OF ABUSE AND NOT JUST GO ALONG LIKE A BUNCH OF SHEEP AND BOW DOWN TO DEMANDS LIKE THIS. 

ANYWAY I HAVE SAID I WANT TO TAKE ELIZABETH OUT TOMORROW AND OF COURSE IT HAS TO BE ARRANGED THAT A MEMBER OF STAFF COMES WITH SO THAT THIS MEMBER OF STAFF CAN REPORT BACK TO THIS CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST EVERYTHING.  HOW RIDICULOUS THIS WHOLE SITUATION IS JUST BECAUSE HE DOES NOT LIKE ME.  HE DOES NOT LIKE THE WAY I HAVE CHALLENGED HIS IDEAS.  FOR INSTANCE I TOLD  HIM HE WAS DOING WRONG BY TAKING HER OFF AS MUCH AS 150 MG AND I TOLD HIM IT SHOULD BE DONE ON A DAY TO DAY BASIS WITH MINISCULE AMOUNTS TAKEN OFF.  HE HAS NOT LISTENED TO THIS ADVICE AND I PROVIDED A CD AND BOOK WHICH I DOUBT HE COULD BE BOTHERED TO READ.

I HAVE LEFT HIM THE NEW BOOK BY PROFESSOR HEALY CALLED PHARMAGEDDON. 

NOW HE WILL NOT BUDGE ON THE 2 HOURS ESCORTED LEAVE I DOUBT UNTIL THE NEXT MEETING BUT I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO GO FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS AND I AM USING ALL MY HOLIDAY ON GOING TO THESE MEETINGS THAT ACHIEVE NOTHING.

SO IT IS ALL DOWN TO RETHINK AND HE WOULD NOT EVEN LET ELIZABETH SPEAK AT THE MEETING AS WHEN I ASKED HER WHAT SHE WANTED HE BUTTED IN!

IT IS RUDE AND DISGRACEFUL TO DO THIS.

The main issues I have are:

Medication

Time allowed off the ward at weekends

The threatening phone calls which I today reported to Police and showed them my phone – the fact her scheme is left open as though they plan to dump her back there in the circumstances and I have asked for assurances on this as the public have a right to know what is going on in the local area as far as I am concerned.

I have not had any answers to these points and now IT IS ALL DOWN TO RETHINK SO THIS CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST SAYS AS HE GOES BY THEIR ADVICE AND HE IS DESPERATE THAT I DO NOT SEE THE FILES.   NO DOUBT MY NAME IS LIKE MUD IN THEM BUT I DO NOT CARE PERSONALLY WHAT THEY SAY ABOUT ME.  I JUST WANT THE ANSWERS TO MY QUESTIONS ABOVE AND AM ENTITLED TO BE INCLUDED ACCORDING TO NICE GUIDELINES.         

I attended the weekly ward meeting today with a close family friend but gained no further information from the Consultant Psychiatrist and team.  It was a waste of time.

Elizabeth said she was told she could only come off the ward escorted for just 1 hour a day.

When I went in with the close family friend I was told 2 hours.  Anyway that is an improvement I suppose but I am not allowed to take her out alone – I have had every security check done on me and I believe this is an infringement of my daughter’s human rights.   Whilst she is on Section 3 which was forced upon me otherwise I would have lost recognition as being nearest relative,   my daughter is of no danger to the public whatsoever and is couped up on the ward for most of the time.  She has ballooned in weight since being put on Olanzapine and has been given a new tablet and does not even know what it is – this is terrible that a patient is not even informed and is so drugged up to their necks they are completely disregarded.    It was Elizabeth’s wish to be reduced off medication but that is not to say completely taken off.  She signed a declaration before coming to this ward and had a letter in writing from Professor Murray promising a drug free period.  He now is no longer anything to do with the unit where my daughter is and all the promises have come to nothing.  So, my daughter is looking pale and bloated and has put on tremendous weight.  She is on about her 14th mind altering LSD like drug and is being manipulated as I see it.   Rethink are the advocates and were nowhere to be seen at this meeting.  It is recommended by NICE guidelines that advocates are present but the Consultant Psychiatrist was keen to say that they have been involved and have visited Elizabeth on her own and they have informed him that she does not want the family to see her files and in other words know what is going on.  Elizabeth was in the meeting and when I put the question to her the consultant psychiatrist butted in and did not allow her to speak. I then offered to go out as if she did not want me personally to see the files then the rest of the family should be allowed to have information –  she after all signed several letters before she was drugged up like this and in a better way to allow the family to see what was going on but this is being denied and I believe that she has been so weakened by the powers of this consultant psychiatrist that she simply does not have any rights any more.   HER RIGHTS ARE BEING ABUSED AND I HAVE NO KNOWLEDGE OF WHETHER RETHINK VISIT THAT OFTEN AND BESIDES MY DAUGHTER LOVED COMING OFF THE WARD AND GOING TO THE LOCAL SHOPPING CENTRES, BEING OUT IN THE FRESH AIR – GETTING OFF THE WARD WHERE SHE FINDS IT STRESSFUL.   SHE DID SAY SHE FELT VERY TIRED AND IF SHE HAS BEEN PUT ON AN ENORMOUS AMOUNT OF DRUGS – THE MOST HAS BEEN 800MG THEN IT IS NO WONDER WHY SHE IS TIRED AND LETHARGIC BUT NOONE KNOWS WHAT DRUG SHE IS ON – SHE THOUGHT IT MIGHT BE METHADONE.

Anyway I typed a list of questions and got no answers about the medication whatsoever and Elizabeth sat there quietly throughout the meeting and was NOT allowed to speak when I tried to include her.  An advocate must be present and the friend of mine suggested that another meeting was called with the advocate present to satisfy the Consultant Psychiatrist that it was what Elizabeth wanted.   He was adamant that Elizabeth had said she did not want the family to see the files AND THIS IS NOT TRUE AS SHE SIGNED MORE THAN ONE LETTER OF CONSENT IN THIS RESPECT BEFORE SHE WAS SO DRUGGED UP TO HER NECK ON GOD KNOWS WHAT!

I have had 3 so far late at night but I am not afraid.  I would much rather have these phone calls than Elizabeth – besides I am keeping Police informed but what is so bad is that the Royal Bethlem Hospital do not seem to care less and noone has rung me back.  I am worried that Elizabeth is getting the calls too from a patient she met on a mixed ward.   MIXED WARDS SHOULD BE BANNED.

I spoke very briefly to Elizabeth today and will visit at the weekend.  I have put in a day’s holiday to attend the ward meeting and instead of speaking will list points and questions – one question is has he put her on Methadone.  She does not even know what she is taking.  THIS IS ABUSE!  The law is geared not to protect the vulnerable but the doctors.

Today I had an interesting invitation to meet with all the Heads of the various pharmaceutical companies.   would have loved to have turned up and given them a piece of my mind  – Instead I have asked when the next meeting are due in London and I will make a point of going.   I just wish I had more time to deal with all of this but I work full time.

It is not right that this violent person who is currently theatening me should be out and about unescorted  and I have a letter from the Assistant Director of Social Services to this effect that it is down to human rights. 

Anyway, I told the police about the phone calls but would rather get them than Elizabeth any day.  

 

 

Today whilst at work I received text messages from Elizabeth asking me to bring things to her when I next visit.   I briefly texted her back to say that I would hopefully be coming to the meeting on Friday at the hospital and would bring her whatever she wanted.  Hopefully at this meeting I will get some answers to my question but I dont count on it.   It worries me the way Elizabeth was talking in her later telephone call to me.     I went outside to take this call and she described how she was feeling.  “Mum, I feel so ill, I am lying down on the bed and feel like I am at Death’s Door”.    Elizabeth has talked strangely before but also mentioned about a tablet they gave her to take.   I asked if she had found o ut what it is and she said “no”.  I am most concerned.  If only I could take her away to Earth House in America.   This place is set in beautiful grounds and they respect the patient –  it is not to say they encourage someone to come completely off medication but surely to keep someone on the minimal amount is much kinder and to listen to that person instead of ignoring them.  There is nowhere like that over here in this Country and I think that this is what is needed.   Looking at the acute wards I could not get over how many patients were returning back time and time again to the wards not appearing to get any better.   It is upsetting to get calls like this and to know that Elizabeth is missing out on life and has had such an awful time over the past years.

 I wish I had read the book by Dr Ann Blake Tracy before and knew just how harmful these drugs are.  I had n o idea but began to be suspicious when I could see she was getting worse and not better and suddenly she was aggressive and and everything about her had changed.  I can now associate with everything I have seen in Elizabeth’s behaviour in that wonderful book Prozac Panacea Pandora.  Thank God some honest professionals are willing to tell the truth.   IT ALL STARTED WHEN SHE TOOK ANTI-DEPRESSANTS CALLED CIPRALIX.  NOW I KNOW THAT ALL THESE DRUGS ARE THE SAME BUT WITH A DIFFERENT NAME BUT SHOULD BE CALLED PROZAC PROZAC AND PROZAC.  Dr Healy links these drugs with suicide but you think that they are different because they are different in name and are very cleverly marketed.

 

Also I have had more than one call from an acquaintance of my daughter who she originally met on a mixed ward who I warned to stay away from her.   This person is violent and has been in prison and tonight again I got a call and the day before a nasty text message.  I hope the Royal Bethlem are not letting him visit my daughter after he was allowed to on one occasion.  This is the patient who was on a Section 3 so the Police told me when he was turning up on my doorstep.  Unfortunately Elizabeth gave this person my address and this person mistook someone elses house as mine and threatened them badly.  Apparently locally a Section 3 patient can go out unescorted as part of their human rights.    It is the opposite at Royal Bethlem –  it is like a prison camp t here – everything is locked and you have to get someone to open the door to let you out.  I believe they go too far in that respect and I believe they are breaching my daughter’s human rights by what they are doing at the  moment.

 

Meanwhile looking at the court papers, the local council is full of praise for themselves they say the following:

They are “committed to serving the whole borough fairly, delivering excellent services and building strong communities.”

Of course I do not agree with any of  this at all. 

I have just seen a letter written by her sister that she is worried about her care.  Her sister states she was diagnosed age 13 with schizophrenia and goes on to say she supports her sister in her dislike of the medication and all the side effects she is experiencing.  If anyone should know she should – she was put on anti-psychotics age 13 – not tried and tested on children. Her sister goes on to say that the drugs do not work in her case and that any withdrawal should be done slowly.  I believe this is why things do not work when these doctors take someone off a large amount of medication and it only causes distress and terrible withdrawal symptoms whereas it should be done slowly and very very gradually on a day to day basis and any withdrawal should be done in a hospital environment not in the community.  This help is not given at all –  you get help in coming off cocaine/heroin for instance but I do not know of any help as regards these drugs on prescription even if you are having terrible effects from using these drugs. 

 

“Mum, they have given me another medication to take – I think it is Methadone but I am not sure what it is”.  “Why dont you ask – you must ask what you are taking before you agree and look at the information they should automatically provide on this drug”.

This conversation took place today on my visit to the ward to see Elizabeth.  I went up to the office and told them about this conversation and asked them to verify to Elizabeth what new medication had been given but the nurse there said she was “not aware of any changes”.  I insisted there had been a change and that I wanted to know what she was put on next but the nurse claimed to have no knowledge.  Another patient was telling my daughter how important it was to know about what medication she was taking and that she looks everything up however Elizabeth is so drugged up now that she is “like putty in their hands”.  It is wrong and unfair to treat someone like this and to take advantage of them when they are weak and vulnerable and have had all their rights taken away from them.  What kind of care is this.  Is this a civilised country. 

In order to have these drugs – they have to be tested on animals like helpless mice, rabbits – one experiment involving mice on these drugs resulted in the mice tearing one another apart.   Rabbits are normally docile and they became aggressive. 

Dr Candace Pert who has written the book “Molecules of Emotion” has been very outspoken on these drugs and she is one of the creators.

So not only are animals suffering but human beings, the most vulnerable of people are being abused and drugged up to their necks against their wishes.   Elizabeth thought she was going into Royal Bethlem Hospital for a drug free period and proper assessment and no sooner had she got there, the Consultant Psychiatrist and Pharmacist were trying to persuade her to take Clozapine and THIS HAS ALWAYS BEEN AGAINST HER WISHES.  

To my horror now that a treatment order has been enforced this team can do whatever they like and can force medication upon my daughter whether she wants it or not.  Or else, they can drug her up on the highest dosage to the point she does not know what she is doing and agrees.  SHE DOES NOT EVEN KNOW WHAT DRUG SHE IS ON AT THE MOMENT AND THIS IS SO VERY APALLING.

In America there is a place called Earth House I would have loved Elizabeth to go to.  They give the minimal of medication and call the patients students.    Patients are treated with respect and not kept prisoner.   Some patients escape from this hospital and I do not know whether some do not get out at all and end up dead.   If they continue to give all these drugs to Elizabeth she will die that is for sure BUT NOONE COULD CARE LESS – ALL THEY WANT TO DO IS EXPERIMENT AND CHANGE AND ALTER THE MEDICATION THROWING HER OFF BALANCE WITH HER BEHAVIOUR AND ALL OF IT IS DONE ON A TRIAL AND ERROR BASIS.   YES THEY ARE CARRYING OUT TESTS ON HER ALL THE TIME AS REGARDS BLOOD TESTS BUT THIS DOES NOT GUARANTEE HER SAFETY AND SHE COULD END UP DEAD.  THIS IS A SERIOUS AMOUNT OF MEDICATION THEY ARE GIVING TO A YOUNG GIRL WHO HAS HAD HER LIFE RUINED WITH ALL THESE DRUGS.  SHE WAS NEVER VIOLENT, SHE WAS IMMACULATELY BEHAVED – SHE ONCE HAD A JOB, ONCE WAS LEARNING TO DRIVE, ONCE HAPPY THEN SOMETHING BAD HAPPENED AND UNFORTUNATELY SHE VISITED HER DOCTOR AND THE FIRST THING ON OFFER WAS ANTI DEPRESSANTS.   SHE TOOK HERSELF OFF THESE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS IN ONE GO AND THAT WAS WHEN THERE WAS A HUGE CHANGE AND SHE BECAME UNRECOGNISABLE AS THE PERSON SHE ONCE WAS.  

Instead of counselling drugs are given and once on them you cannot just come off.   The drugs have the same effect as LSD.   Elizabeth never heard voices in the first instance and another expert says another diagnosis in the files.

I am absolutely in despair as a mother and am so worried for Elizabeth.    The team have all ganged up against me and no longer want me to take her out unless escorted.    That means there is no privacy and someone from the team is listening all the time and no doubt makes notes to report back to the Consultant Psychiatrist and it only takes one word against me to get him to place a ban altogether and so I am going to ask for some help from the local churches seeing as the team do not trust me to be with my daughter any more and I have had every security test etc etc done on me, this might be a solution.    The whole thing is very very cruel.  Everyone has their jobs at stake and everyone must comply whether they agree or not.  I am being punished for being outspoken but I have every concern as a mother.  There is supposed to be an organisation called Rethink involved but they have not bothered to reply to my email recently.

When someone is on such a treatment order their rights are stripped from them and the law does not protect them – it protects the doctors and social workers – WHAT KIND OF JUSTICE IS THIS FOR THE MOST VULNERABLE OF PATIENTS LIKE THE MENTALLY ILL AND LIKE THE ELDERLY.   THERE NEEDS TO BE BETTER COMPLAINTS SYSTEMS IN PLACE AND THE PHSO AND LOCAL GOVERNMENT OMBUDSMAN HAVE SHUT DOWN MY CASE WITHOUT ANY SATISFACTORY SOLUTIONS IN PLACE AND BESIDES THEY  HAVE NO POWERS.  WHAT GOOD IS THIS AND THIS LEAVES THE LIKES OF MY DAUGHTER UNDER THE CONTROL OF A TEAM WHO CAN DO WHAT THEY LIKE WITHOUT QUESTION UNTIL OF COURSE A PATIENT DIES AND THAT IS WHY I AM DOCUMENTING THIS WHOLE THING.   I AM SO SO WORRIED FOR MY DAUGHTER RIGHT NOW – IF THEY  HAVE PUT HER ON METHADONE WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON.   I AM GOING TO PUT IN FOR ANOTHER DAY OFF TO ATTEND THE WEEKLY MEETING.   THIS TIME I AM GOING TO JUST TYPE OUT QUESTIONS AND NOT SPEAK AS I HAVE GOT SO UPSET AT THESE MEETINGS BEFORE AND HAVE COME AWAY WITH NO ANSWERS.

ANOTHER QUESTION WOULD BE THE PLACEMENT OF MY DAUGHTER AS THE LOCAL AREA IS NOT GOOD AND THE CARE HAS BEEN APALLING THERE.  THE TEAM AT LOCAL LEVEL ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE PROVISION OF CARE BUT SURELY THEY ARE NOT GOING TO PLACE HER BACK UNDER THAT SCHEME FOR THE 9TH TIME WHICH IS TOTALLY AGAINST HER WISHES AND SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENED TO  HER THERE.  

THE ONLY SOLUTION SOMETIMES IS TO MOVE TO A BETTER AREA TO GET AWAY FROM THIS SITUATION.

I AM NEITHER HAPPY ANY MORE IN THIS AREA OR THIS COUNTRY WHERE THE CARE IS CRUEL AND ABUSIVE.

ELIZABETH’S DREAM CONSTANTLY IS THAT WE VISIT FINLAND.   SHE TALKS NON STOP ABOUT FINLAND ALL THE TIME AS SHE WAS SO HAPPY THERE AND SPENT SEVERAL MONTHS THERE. 

ALL I WANT IS FOR ELIZABETH TO BE HAPPY AND THAT SHE CAN GET AWAY FROM THIS AWFUL PLACE AND A TEAM WHO ARE DESTROYING EVERYTHING AND NO LONGER WANT ME TO TAKE MY OWN DAUGHTER OUT AND GIVE HER FRESH AIR, TAKE HER TO THE CINEMA, TAKE HER TO SHOPPING.  NO LONGER CAN WE SPEND TIME TOGETHER ANY MORE UNLESS SOMEONE ESCORTS US AND LISTENS TO EVERY WORD OF OUR CONVERSATION, SOMEONE IS REPORTING BACK TO THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST EVERY THING SAID OR DONE –

It is not only people suffering but look at the tests done on the animals to produce these terrible drugs.  I read in one book I have – Prozac Panacea Pandora by Dr Ann Blake Tracy that inone experiment mice tore one another apart and rabbits became aggressive and they are normally docile animals.   If this is the effect on animals then vulnerable people suffer too and cannot control their emotions.    The drugs act like LSD giving hallucinations and nightmares.  Elizabeth has told me that she is having a nightmare during the day and has suffered from hallucinations.  She is frightened by all of this –  IT IS SO VERY SAD.

Everyone will soon be focused on the Olympics.   Elizabeth was once a good runner.  She was helping me with my running technique when I was training to be a police officer and she helped me in my training to get through the bleep test.    Elizabeth was training with the Special Olympics team.   Elizabeth would go every Sunday and I would take her along with other disabled runners.   I also joined Elizabeth in an abled-bodied running club locally and she did well there and I used to take her, sit and watch and take her back afterwards.   Whilst living locally I used to collect her and have her over for dinner and she used to stay overnight .

It came to the point that every time it was time to go back to the scheme she would act up and become very unstable – she was unhappy under that scheme and something happened to her.    I do not know what is going ot happen now and cannot understand why this scheme is still up and running and a lot of money being spent on it when she has made it clear she does not want to return there.  I had to sleep on the floor a whole week as she was afraid and she wanted to go into hospital to get away from there and feel safe.    The reason I could not have her home was by this time she was so unstable and there had been incidents and other people living at home I had to consider.  Having research matters thoroughly I now know that the condition Elizabeth was suffering is called Akathisia and this is a direct result of the drug itself. 

Dr Ann Blake Tracy has put me in touch with others and I am not alone in my situation but many people are so weakened and especially the patients that they are unable to speak up for themselves.  This is so sad and it is these people that need protecting and teams need to be more answerable – it should never be a solution to get rid of the closest member of the family because it makes life easy when in fact a team should be working with the closest member of the family in my opinion.

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