It is Jubillee weekend, a time for celebration in the UK and I was looking out street parties and things to take Elizabeth to as I only get to see her for a short while on Saturday.
Anyway I turned up at the ward to be told by staff they had been given instructions by the Consultant Psychiatrist that it would NOT be allowed for me to take her out unless someone escorted us. This is despite the fact that Elizabeth is not in the slightest bit volatile or making threats to anyone. I FEEL THIS IS PURELY TO GET BACK AT ME, AS THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST WHO SMILES THROUGH MEETINGS WOULD LIKE TO DESTROY THINGS BETWEEN THE TWO OF US. THIS SORT OF THING GOES ON UNDER THE BRITISH MENTAL HEALTH SYSTEM RUN BY THE NHS. THERE IS TOO MUCH POWER AWARDED TO DOCTORS LIKE THIS AND SOCIAL WORKERS WHO THINK THEY ARE ABOVE THE LAW. THE LAW SHOULD BE MUCH FAIRER TO STOP THE ABUSE THAT IS GOING ON.
Please do not get me wrong and mistake the fact that I hate all of the NHS. There are some very good professional nurses and even doctors on the surgical wards but under the mental health, there is much abuse going on. I have lost count of how many times I have heard patients complaining about their rights not being listened to. JUST BY PUNISHING ME LIKE THIS IS ALSO HURTING ELIZABETH BECAUSE NOONE COULD ACCOMPANY US OUT AS THEY WERE SHORT STAFFED AND ON A VERY NICE DAY AND A WEEKEND FULL OF CELEBRATIONS OVER HERE IN THE UK ELIZABETH WAS LEFT TO BE COUPED UP ON THE WARD NOT EVEN GETTING ANY FRESH AIR. I DO NOT THINK SHE WENT OUT YESTERDAY EITHER. WE USED TO GO OUT SHOPPING AND TO THE CINEMA WHAT CRUEL ABUSE IN A SO CALLED DEMOCRATIC AND CIVILISED COUNTRY. WHAT IS THE POINT OF PUNISHING A HELPLESS VULNERABLE PERSON IN THIS WAY. I WENT OUT AND GOT ELIZABETH SOME SHOPPING AND LOST COUNT HOW MANY TIMES SHE RANG ASKING IF I WAS ON MY WAY BACK. IT IS REALLY HORRIBLE WHAT IS GOING ON.
THE OTHER PERSON WHO IS BELIEVE ALSO HAS GOT IT IN FOR ME IS THE SOCIAL WORKER – THIS WOMAN LIKE THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST HAS SMUGLY SMILED THROUGH MEETINGS. I FIND THIS BEHAVIOUR MOST UNPROFESSIONAL AND I ASKED FOR A REPLACEMENT, SOMEONE WHO TOOK M ATTERS SERIOUSLY NOT AS ONE BIG JOKE AND I WAS ALSO ALARMED AND CONCERNED THAT A SOCIAL WORKER SHOULD TAKE IT UPON HERSELF TO TRY AND PERSUADE MY DAUGHTER TO TAKE CLOZAPINE. WHAT ON EARTH IS SO GOOD ABOUT THIS DRUG!!!! I KNOW OF SEVERAL PEOPLE WHO HAVE SUFFERED HEART PROBLEMS AND IT CARRIES WITH IT 3 BLACK BOX WARNINGS THAT IT SHOULD NOT BE GIVEN TO ANYONE WITH A HISTORY OF HEART PROBLEMS. HOWEVER, THEY ARE ALL EXTREMELY DANGEROUS DRUGS AND GIVEN TO SOMEONE WHO IN THE FIRST INSTANCE WAS THE VICTIM OF CRIME – NEEDED COUNSELLING BUT INSTEAD WAS PUSHED BY THESE SO CALLED PROFESSIONALS ON ALL THOSE DRUGS ON MY LEAFLET WHICH AMOUNT TO 11 AND STILL THEY CONTINUE WITH THIS POISONING OF MY DAUGHTER WHO HAS SEVERAL DIAGNOSES. THE ONLY WAY TO REALLY FIND OUT IS TO OPEN SOMEONE’S HEAD AND THERE IS NO SUCH SURGERY – GOD FORBID. IT IS ALL BASED ON TRIAL AND ERROR – GUESSWORK AND THIS HAS BEEN ADMITTED TO ME AT LOCAL LEVEL AND THE DRUGS ARE EXPERIMENTED ON THAT PERSON. SOME WORK TO BEGIN WITH BUT THEN WHEN THEY WEAR OFF THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST HAS TO LOOK FOR ANOTHER DRUG – THAT IS WHAT HAPPENED TO ELIZABETH ON SEROQUEL – SHE WAS SUFFERING FROM A SERIOUS CONDITION CALLED AKATHISIA – A DIRECT RESULT OF THE DRUG ITSELF. THE DRUGS ACT LIKE LSD AND CAUSE HALLUCINATIONS. IT IS EASY TO JUST PUSH DRUGS ON POOR HELPLESS VULNERABLE PATIENTS AND THEN THEY PUT PRESSURE ON THEM BEHIND THE CLOSED DOORS OF THE WARDS. ONCE UNDER THEIR CONTROL, IT ONLY TAKES FOR THAT PATIENT TO LASH OUT OR SHOW ANY SIGNS OF AGGRESSION AND THEN THEY ARE IN A TRAPPED SITUATION WORSE THAN ANY PRISON WHERE ALL YOUR RIGHTS ARE STRIPPED AWAY FROM YOU.
If you dare to challenge the team then the sanctions apply to you as well like today. It is absolutely cruel. While the likes of these professionals do not show their faces on the wards and only visit for a short while it is the families that suffer the impact as they have to listen to the person who is in distress and then families are torn apart by teams who side with a patient or misinterpret what is going on . Well maybe it is a good thing if a member of staff has to accompany me out. Then they can report back that I am not some sort of criminal out to do harm to my daughter. Most of the distress I have witnessed is my daughter is upset at the team themselves for not listening. At the end of the day I hae stuck up for her like any mother would and this has not made me at all popular with any of the team. The nurses themselves on the whole I have nothing against but I want things to come back on the people who are harming my daughter and who have neglected her so badly. I am in particular bitter towards her social worker who I begged to do something to help. Now they are wasting over £800 a week on an empty flat. Surely they do not intend putting her back there because I will surely name them if that is the case. Something bad happened under that scheme which I said all along was unsuitable.
A Section 3 is for 6 months and I was absolutely bombarded with threatening calls and harrassed left right and centre whilst trying to get on with my work. They were so desperate to replace me as nearest relative and this was brought about by the person named on the court papers – her social worker and then the team at the Royal Bethlem got involved. Elizabeth has a right to know what is going on and has blamed me for “putting her in prison” Unfortunately this “prison” was the only thing on offer as everything else at local level had failed and in particular the scheme and what happened under this scheme that is supposed to have 24 hr supervision. If that jsocial worker had tried at least to find somewhere else things may have been better for Elizabeth but she DID NOTHING and I asked for a replacement and instead of a replacement they appointed yet another social worker. This must all have cost a lot of money.
During the week I visited the homeless – most of them openly admitted to having suffered from mental illness and all spoke of extreme abuse they have suffered under the system run by the NHS.
On Friday I had a call from the CQC who are supposed to investigate and to be fair they did show some interest when I told them the full story. If someone is covered with bruises all over their face as a relative it is not good enough to be told “I am happy with that” from the lead nurse. Now they do not want me to have sight of the file – it is obvious they have things to hide.
Once a week I get a phone call and this TELLS ME NOTHING. If only this Consultant Psychiatrist knew how to communicate himself and pick up the phone for two seconds then there would not be all these problems but he is the one who has imposed the cruel punishment towards me and at the same time he is punishing my daughter.
There should be greater powers to investigate what is going on under closed doors in a secretive environment such as mental health – this is where the abuse goes on as noone visits hardly and when an investigation team such as the CQC arrive, probably staff are well prepared for them but they have not seen the things I HAVE SEEN or listened to the patients themselves.
THE WHOLE SYSTEM NEEDS LOOKING AT – THERE SEEMS TO BE TWO DIFFERENT LEVELS OF SECTION 3 BECAUSE AT LOCAL LEVEL PATIENTS ARE ALLOWED TO ROAM FREELY UNSUPERVISED AND IT IS ALL DOWN TO THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS. AT THE MAUDSLEY HUMAN RIGHTS ARE NOT CONSIDERED EVEN THOUGH THEY HAVE AN ORGANISATION CALLED RETHINK – THEY SHOUJLD BE PRESENT AT ALL MEETINGS BUT I NOTE THEY ARE VERY CLOSELY ASSOCIATED WITH THE HOSPITAL AND PROBABLY GET FUNDING AT GOVERNMENT LEVEL – THIS MAKES ME WONDER! HOW OFTEN DO RETHINK ATTEND THE MEETINGS THAT CAN BE SO DAUNTING TO SOMEONE LIKE MY DAUGHTER. THERE WERE AT LEAST 8 PEOPLE WHEN I CAME TO THE LAST ONE.
THE POINT IS JUST BECAUSE THEY DO NOT LIKE YOU AS A MOTHER IT IS VERY VERY CRUEL TO PREVENT SOMEONE WHO IS DRUGGED UP TO THEIR NECK ON HARMFUL CHEMICALS AGAINST THEIR WISHES NOT BE ALLOWED TO EITHER GO TO CHURCH OR TO A JUBILEE PARTY WITH HER MOTHER WHEN NO STAFF WERE AVAILABLE.
I TOOK THE OPPORTUNITY TO CALL AND SEE THE LOCAL CHURCHES TO TELL THEM WHAT WAS GOING ON.
WHEN I WAS FIRST TOLD THIS NEWS I COULD NOT GO OUT ANY MORE ALONE WIHT MY DAUGHTER AND HAD TO BE ESCORTED LIKE A CRIMINAL I FELT LIKE MY LIFE WAS NOT WORTH LIVING. I AM NOT ONE TO THINK ALONG THESE LINES AT ALL BUT THAT IS WHAT THEY HAVE DONE TO ME AND I AM BITTER TOWARDS THIS AWFUL CARE WE HAVE IN PLACE IN A SO CALLED CIVILISED COUNTRY – THE SECTION WAS PUT IN PLACE IN THE FIRST INSTANCE BECAUSE ELIZABETH WAS TAKEN OFF A LARGE AMOUNT OF MEDICAITON AND THIS WAS MIXED WITH ANOTHER WHICH MADE HER UNSTABLE AND THERE WAS AN INCIDENT ON THE WARD. THE PUNISHMENT SHOULD HAVE BEEN DISH OUT TO THE CONSULTANT PSYCHIATRIST FOR NOT DOING THINGS PROPERLY – INSTEAD OF REDUCING SLOWLY AND GRADUALLY HE JUST MIXED TWO TOGTETHER WHICH IS VERY VERY DANGEROUS INDEED. IN THE COURT PAPERS THEY ARE THREATENING TO PUT HER ON CLOZAPINE AND I WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT THIS IS AGAINST HER HUMAN RIGHTS.
AS FOR HER SAFETY WHICH IS THE THING THEY WILL ARGUE ABOUT – THEY COULD SAY THEY DO NOT FEEL SHE IS SAFE WITH HER OWN MOTHER – THERE ARE NO SECURITY TESTS I HAVE NOT GONE THROUGH – I HAVE THREE SECURITY LICENCES WHICH INVOLVE HEALTH AND SAFETY AND HAD TO GIVE UP MY POLICE TRAINING BECAUSE OF ALL OF THIS. I HAVE HAD THOROUGH SECURITY CHECKS AND I THINK IT IS BECAUSE THEY ARE WORRIED FOR THEMSELVES. IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE THE WHOLE SYSTEM COLLAPSES AND CHANGES WILL HAVE TO BE MADE AND I CANNOT WAIT FOR THAT DAY AS CARE SHOULD NOT BE ALL ABOUT DRUG PUSHING – THAT IS NOT THE ANSWER AT ALL ESPECIALLY FOR SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN ABUSED.
IT IS ALSO WRONG TO ASSUME THAT IT IS ALWAYS DOWN TO THE HOME AND FAMILY BUT THAT IS THE ASSUMPTION AND EASIER TO DEAL WITH – HOME FAMILY AND ENVIRONMENT WHEN IN FACT IT IS THE DRUGS THEMSELVES. THE DRUGS MAKE SOMEONE VIOLENT AND CONCEAL THE TRUE FEELINGS AND DO NOT DEAL WITH THE SOURCE OF THE PROBLEM. THE ANGER COMES WITH NOT BEING LISTENED TO AND BEING TRAPPED. TRAPPED IN AN EVIL SYSTEM THAT NEEDS CRUSHING TO PIECES AND STARTING FROM SCRATCH.
ALL I CAN HOPE FOR IS THAT ELIZABETH IS MOVED BUT IT WILL PROBABLY NOT BE TO THE HOME AREA – THAT IS WONDERFUL! I WOULD LIKE HER TO MAKE A FRESH START. COMING HOME WOULD NOT REALLY BE THE ANSWER BECAUSE ANYONE ON THESE MEDICATIONS CAN BECOME UNSTABLE – I DO NOT BELIEVE THE DIAGNOSES AND FEEL SHE HAS BEEN MISDIANOSED AND TREATED IN THE MOST APALLING MANNER.
HOWEVER I AM NOT ALONE AND SOMETHING NEEDS TO BE DONE THAT IS FOR SURE.
I CAN ONLY PRAY TO GOD THAT SHE IS MOVED AS SOON AS POSSIBLE AWAY FROM THAT AWFUL PLACE.
THE OTHER THING IS THAT I NOW HAVE PROFESSOR HEALY ADDED ON FB AND HE WRITES SOME VERY INTERESTING FACTS WHICH I SHALL COVER IN MY NEXT BLOG.