Did not realise that Elizabeth was seeing other family members on Sunday so chose instead to look around a wonderful local shopping centre and pick up my book which I have just ordered called “Molecules of Emotion” by Dr Candace Pert. Dr Candace Pert is one of the creators of these harmful drugs and an outspoken critic featured in Dr Ann Blake Tracy’s informative book called Prozac Panacea and Pandora. I have of course taken these books on the ward as I feel the team should not dismiss such evidence as to how harmful the drugs are.
I telephoned Elizabeth later as I was still in the area and asked if she wanted me to call in and drop some money in for her as she had requested me to do the previous day. Straight away I got to hear that Elizabeth was not herself and in a bad way. I am sure the doctor is messing around with her medication in some way as she was quite unstable and so I decided not to stay for very long as this could antagonise the situation.
I dropped the money in and sat down for a few minutes with her and she showed me the new clothes she bought whilst out earlier. You could not speak to her or have a conversation with her at all, she was very hyper and jumpy in her behaviour. I had brought her a few bits and pieces and left shortly after.
Of course when someone is ill like that and drugged up to their neck on LSD-like tablets that actually cause the psychosis themselves namely Seroquel and Olanzapine, you have to expect someone is not going to be at all well. The Royal Bethlem are continuing to do what they did at local level and at times she sounded a bit suicidal and of course anger is vented at you for being that nearest relative who “put her in the Maudsley”. I thought this was a leading hospital that took a different approach but have been proven wrong. Elizabeth is worried she will be kept in forever but I think that moneywise, I do not think that will be an option but pray she will not return to the dreadful local area where I live where the mental health care is apalling. It must be costing them a fortune at local level and this is probably the reason why they wish to replace me as the closest relative thinking about it. There are familiy members that live in another area outside of London and I am thinking that if transferred there, the funding would come under that particular area. There is an assessment coming up at local level but every time I have been to such meeting I have come away so upset as you are up against so much and a team that stick together and do not wish to listen to you and it is no wonder they smugly smile. At least four people have done this so far attached to various teams which is highly unprofessional in my opinion.
Currently on a section 2 they wish to extend it to Section 3 (up to 6 months) and if they are as I think they are playing about with the medication and altering things it causes a person to suffer form psychosis I would not have a chance to dispute this as only a short while ago she was fine in her behaviour and talking in a decent manner and now look – just before this assessment she is completely off her head. The teams like to say someone like my daughter knows what she is doing but there are many times and I have so many witnesses she is not able to control and in a dream like state. She mentioned she suffers from nightmares during the day – a sign of the LSD like drugs. Psychosis is not a condition just brought on by a so called diagnosis but as a direct result of the harmful LSD like drugs they give. She never had anything like this before. I am so sorry now for Elizabeth and there is not a day that does not go by when I do not think of her no matter how hard I try to switch my mind to other things. I feel so helpless and feel like my life has been destroyed to and her life rests in God’s hands. Nothing can reassure me as to the safety of these drugs as I personally am in touch with patients and have friends who have been on them who now suffer long term serious health problems. Of course this is something I do not want for Elizabeth.
This is my daughter and I am thinking about Michael Jackson and what happened to him and thinking that I do not want to lose my daughter and do not believe in these diagnoses at all for which she has 4. I saw the decline in her when she took herself off Cipralix in one go and became unrecognisable.
I believe that a trauma can bring about a breakdown which time could heal like it did with someone else in my family over a period of 5 months who refused every scrap of medication. I believe that counselling and alternative things like the oils, oxygen that Dr Tracy recommends, meditation and exercise – most importantly correct diet and peaceful environment are so important to get better. Elizabeth is not alone and there are so very many in the same situation and stuck in the system – the forgotten people, people that the Government does not care about at all. Even the press is afraid to print stories and I have approached them several times. The complaints system is biaised and unfair and so is the legal profession – all of this means that this abuse is allowed to continue and people are dying as a result of these awful drugs that should be banned.
This hospital has better facilities than at local level and I was pleased to hear today that she had been given the opportunity to work in their on-site shop but I had never doubted her capabilities and she is very artistic. On the local ward on a previous occasion I went over their heads to book a floristry course and you should have seen the wonderful things she made there – even the staff wanted to buy the displays and the psychiatrist had to admit HE WAS WRONG. It is not often someone in the profession admits they are wrong and I respect anyone who is brave enough to admit it or to stand up for what they think is right when the vast majority are only concerned for themselves and their jobs.
There are one or two I respect in the team but I think personally that it is not drugs that are the answer but correct care and diet/nutritian and counselling play an important part, not to mention animals. The care should be improved at local level and there is huge room for improvement at this hospital. I do not like to see animals caged in but this is RIDICULOUS ABUSE. YOU SHOULD SEE WHAT THIS PLACE IS LIKE WITH HIGH FENCES AROUND. IF THE PATIENTS WERE HAPPY THERE THEN THERE WOULD NOT BE THE NEED FOR THESE HIGH PRISON LIKE FENCES AND BESIDES IF THEY ARE VIOLENT AND AGGRESSIVE THEN IT IS THE DOCTORS PLYING THEM WITH DRUGS THAT CAUSE THIS BECAUSE THEY ALTER THE SEROTONIN LEVELS AND HAVING READ DR TRACY’S BOOK ANYONE WOULD SURELY BE CONVINCED THAT THESE DRUGS ARE NO GOOD AND MAKE SOMEONE PREVIOUSLY PLACID VIOLENT AND WHEN THE CREATOR OF THESE DRUGS DR CANDACE PERT WRITE AS TO HOW ALARMED SHE IS WHY DO NOT MORE PROFESSIONALS LISTEN. THEY ARE IN DENIAL AND DO NOT CARE AS LONG AS THEY HAVE THEIR JOBS AT THE END OF THE DAY. I COULD NOT HAVE DONE MORE THAN DRAW TO THE ATTENTION THE DANGERS OF THESE DRUGS AND INTEND TO TAKE THE NEXT CARERS GROUP MEETING BY STORM.