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 I AM AFRAID THE VIDEO I TOOK OF FLUFFY WATCHING FOOTBALL AND TRYING TO JOIN IN IS APALLING AND I NEARLY DROPPED THE CAMERA AT ONE TIME.  I MAY STILL POST IT ON YOU TUBE AND THIS WILL PROBABLY GAIN VOTES OF SYMPATHY FOR THE WORST FILM.

Anyway I thought it would be beneficial for Elizabeth to have  a pet to enjoy on any visits home and so my younger daughter went in search and came home with “a bargain!”  He used to live in a flat and not one on ground floor level and was six months old when we got him and very timid but now he is “bold as brass”.  My younger daughter said that at £50 we had a bargain as he came with a huge contraption like a climbing frame which he loves I must say.  She said this would cost a lot of money to buy in the shops.  However we had him micro chipped and we had to have the various injections and there was one occasion  he was unwell that required a visit to the vets but now he is extremely settled and very much at home and we have all grown so attached to him.  I have just dropped some pictures of him to Elizabeth and it is sad she does not have him with her right now although they do have dogs – dogs that sniff for drugs.  Who is the culprits responsible for the pushing of these drugs – look no further than the staff of the NHS in particular the psychiatrists.       It is laughable seeing that picture on the door.   Just imagine the outcry if I was to turn up with Fluffy on the ward with my newly acquired lead.  I have a good mind to do this one day.    Anyway as I have said we have all grown attached to him and you can imagine how devastated I was when he went missing recently.   We put reward posters all up the road and eventually a young girl brought him back.  How many more times is he going to go missing!   I was worried at the time as I had not arranged to put in a cat door and so how on earth was he going to get back in again.  Anyway he was out all night long and I could not sleep and I had to sleep downstairs on the settee with the door open just in case but no sign.  After a sleepless night I had to go to work and could barely concentrate because of my worry for him.

I will most probably let him out again but will choose a time when there is someone at home and around rather than out at work all day.

 

Fluffy has calmed Elizabeth at times when she is not feeling too good.  Her mood changes in a flash when she sees him.   SURELY THIS IS MORE BENEFICIAL THAN ALL THE DRUGS IN THE WORLD.  THIS SORT OF THING THE NHS SHOULD PROVIDE ON EVERY ACUTE WARD LIKE CAMBIAN FOUR STAR WARDS.

These 2 organisations are a waste of time complaining to because they have no powers to intervene.

At the end of the day I have taken my complaints to them on more than one occasion and one of them (I cannot remember which one) said the reason for their delay in replying is that they are inundated with complaints! – that says it all the system is NOT WORKING.

I am writing a second blog in one evening because I have just noticed a final response from the Local Government Ombudsman – a three page report that is NOT WORTH THE PAPER IT IS WRITTEN ON.  

 

The first page is full of explanations about roles and powers and how they must consider whether the Council acted reasonably and in accordance with the law.

They give a brief outline – 2 paras on background and then how they consider this complaint in just one sentence..

 

The CPA is not worth the time and effort because these meetings involving the team and patient are very distressing – often without any advocate present as there should be, a meeting will go ahead and you just have the patient and the team.    Elizabeth has said she dreads every Friday as this is the day they have regular meeting with the team and I cannot get along to them for the most part as I work full time but even when I have attended it has been a waste of time as the doctor does not listen.  It is cruel to put a patient into such a position of having to face sometimes 8 or 9 people as there was when I attended on one occasion.    This is not a fair system at all and someone weak and vulnerable, already chemically brainwashed with mind altering drugs is weakened into submission by a team that fire questions and feel they have no choice but to go along with something against their wishes.  This is what Elizabeth has told me and they all reckon she has mental capacity then why on earth would the doctor in the previous team not sign a form stating that she had mental capacity as that is what they are saying.   That means if she hurt someone or did something bad she could end up in court and not have the team’s backing – they will back her when it suits.  It is wrong that people on these prescribed drugs that cause psychosis are put in a prison as now I understand having read the book of Dr Ann Blake Tracy jsut how these drugs affect the serotonin levels and I can associate with that as I have witnessed at first hand the change in behaviour since being on these awful chemicals that should be banned.

 

Anyway the Local Government Ombudsman go on to list how the Council has responded but I am not satisfied with the Council’s response at all – they appointed someone from a disability group to ascertain what she wanted over a period of months.   I then booked a leading hynotherapist which by the way is on offer under the NHS in some areas.   This wonderful care actually worked and would surely be cheaper than the drugs.  I could not believe the transformation in Elizabeth and you could talk normally to her.   I have never seen her look so content and in her own words “it was like floating on air, Mum”.    Well I am in favour of anything that benefits my daughter having seen her in such a distressed state of mind.  This caused uproar in the team when I booked this appointment but I thought enough time had been wasted and I wanted the Council to get on and provide things not years down the line but immediately.  They were paying to employ someone for this purpose and it cost me hundreds of pounds but I could have got the answer in just one hour.  This treatment would have been more cost effective and then this guy from the Disability group could have been involved with my daughter as a mentor helping her to a little voluntary job or do something positive.

 

They like to play on the fact I could not get time off work on one occasion and didnot meet with the team.  The council’s decision was that the care was not lacking but what do you all think –  if someone is admitted 8 times in a short space of time into hospital would you think that the care is satisfactory and that person had been placed correctly then why on earth was she ignored when she was desperate to get out of that home where she was very unhappy and something happened to her.  I also got banned from visiting which caused more distress to my daughter and she had to come down in her night clothes and sit in a freezing care and this was around the time I appointed in desperation an Orthomolecular Psychiatrist and I have never seen my daughter look so happy when I appointed the new specialist and took her to the Bio Lab –  this of course is NOT AVAILABLE ON THE NHS AND THIS IS DISGUSTING AS THE NHS CARE SHOULD NOT BE ALL ABOUT DRUG PUSHING AGAINST A PATIENT’S WISHES AND THERE ARE BETTER THINGS ON OFFER LIKE I DISCOVERED.

 

IN FACT THE REPORT MISSES OUT HUGE CHUNKS OF MY COMPLAINT BECAUSE THEY HAVE NO ANSWERS TO IT.    WHAT THEY DO IS DRAG THINGS OUT, DO NOT LISTEN TO THE FAMILIES AND DO NOT PUT IN PLACE THE FUNDING FOR IDEAS ETC ALL THEY DO IS DISCUSS THEM – WHAT A WASTE OF TIME AND NOW THEY ARE HAVING TO PAY DEARLY AS THE PLACEMENT HAS BEEN WRONG AND IT IS COSTING A LOT OF MONEY FOR AN EMPTY FLAT SHE WILL NOT BE COMING BACK TO.   AT LEAST THE ROYAL BETHLEM DO NOT IGNORE HER COMMENTS LIKE THEY DO AT LOCAL LEVEL.  8 TIMES ADMISSION MUST TELL YOU SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH THE PLACEMENT.   8 TIMES OR MORE NOT WANTING TO LEAVE THE FAMILY HOME TO GO BACK BUT IT IS TOO RISKY BECAUSE OF THE FACT THESE DRUGS MAKE SOMEONE UNSTABLE AS THEY AFFECT THE SEROTONIN LEVELS AS DR TRACY QUITE RIGHTLY SAYS.  THEY CAUSE THE PSYCHOSIS AND THAT CAN LEAD TO SOME BAD SITUATIONS AT HOME.  

THE RESULT FROM THE OMBUDSMAN WS TO SAY “i RECOGNISE THE COMPLAINANT IS CONCERNED ABOUT HER DAUGHTER.  HOWEVER I AM SATISFIED THAT WITHIN ITS LIMIT DIRECT ROLE THE COUNCIL HAS RESPONDED TO HER CONCERNS AND SOUGHT TO EXPLAIN THE POSITION TO HER.  THE COMPLAINANT HAS CONTINUING CONCERNS ARISING OUT OF HER DAUGHTER’S CURRENT SITUATION BUT THESE ARE MATTERS SHE SHOULD PURSUE WITH THE HEALTH AUTHORITIES.”    AND THIS I AM DOING AS WELL.  THEY ARE BOTH TO BLAME – BOTH SOCIAL SERVICES AND THE HEALTH SERVICE.

 

IT IS NOT A SOCIALWORKER’S JOB TO PUSH DRUGS OR TRY TO PERSUADE SOMEONE TO TAKE CLOZAPINE.   IT IS A SOCIAL WORKERS JOB TO LISTEN AND NOT PLAY DOWN RISKS LIKE THEY DO NOT EXIST BUT LISTEN OR IF NOT LISTEN LOOK AND OBSERVE THE FACTS BEFORE YOU INSTEAD OF COMING TO THE SAME CONCLUSIONS AND SITTING BACK AND DOING NOTHING.

 

SO THIS IS THE REASON THE INVESTIGATOR DECIDED TO SHUT DOWN THE CASE AND YET NOTHING HAS BEEN RESOLVED.  SO MUCH FOR THE COMPLAINTS PROCEDURES! 

Did not realise that Elizabeth was seeing other family members on Sunday so chose instead to look around a wonderful local shopping centre and pick up my book which I have just ordered called “Molecules of Emotion” by Dr Candace Pert.   Dr Candace Pert is one of the creators of these harmful drugs and an outspoken critic featured in Dr Ann Blake Tracy’s informative book called Prozac Panacea and Pandora.  I have of course taken these books on the ward as I feel the team should not dismiss such evidence as to how harmful the drugs are.

I telephoned Elizabeth later as I was still in the area and asked if she wanted me to call in and drop some money in for her as she had requested me to do the previous day.   Straight away I got to hear that Elizabeth was not herself and in a bad way.   I am sure the doctor is messing around with her medication in some way as she was quite unstable and so I decided not to stay for very long as this could antagonise the situation. 

I dropped the money in and sat down for a few minutes with her and she showed me the new clothes she bought whilst out earlier.  You could not speak to her or have a conversation with her at all, she was very hyper and jumpy in her behaviour.  I had brought her a few bits and pieces and left shortly after.

Of course when someone is ill like that and drugged up to their neck on LSD-like tablets that actually cause the psychosis themselves namely Seroquel and Olanzapine, you have to expect someone is not going to be at all well.   The Royal Bethlem are continuing to do what they did at local level and at times she sounded a bit suicidal and of course anger is vented at you for being that nearest relative who “put her in the Maudsley”.  I thought this was a leading hospital that took a different approach but have been proven wrong.   Elizabeth is worried she will be kept in forever but I think that moneywise, I do not think that will be an option but pray she will not return to the dreadful local area where I live where the mental health care is apalling. It must be costing them a fortune at local level and this is probably the reason why they wish to replace me as the closest relative thinking about it. There are familiy members that live in another area outside of London and I am thinking that if transferred there, the funding would come under that particular area.  There is an assessment coming up at local level but every time I have been to such meeting I have come away so upset as you are up against so much and a team that stick together and do not wish to listen to you and it is no wonder they smugly smile.  At least four people have done this so far attached to various teams which is highly unprofessional in my opinion. 

Currently on a section 2 they wish to extend it to Section 3 (up to 6 months) and if they are as I think they are playing about with the medication and altering things it causes a person to suffer form psychosis I would not have a chance to dispute this as only a short while ago she was fine in her behaviour and talking in a decent manner and now look – just before this assessment she is completely off her head.  The teams like to say someone like my daughter knows what she is doing but there are many times and I have so many witnesses she is not able to control and in a dream like state.   She mentioned she suffers from nightmares during the day – a sign of the LSD like drugs.   Psychosis is not a condition just brought on by a so called diagnosis but as a direct result of the harmful LSD like drugs they give. She never had anything like this before.  I am so sorry now for Elizabeth and there is not a day that does not go by when I do not think of her no matter how hard I try to switch my mind to other things.  I feel so helpless and feel like my life has been destroyed to and her life rests in God’s hands.  Nothing can reassure me as to the safety of these drugs as I personally am in touch with patients and have friends who have been on them who now suffer long term serious health problems.  Of course this is something I do not want for Elizabeth.

This is my daughter and I am thinking about Michael Jackson and what happened to him and thinking that I do not want to lose my daughter and do not believe in these diagnoses at all for which she has 4.  I saw the decline in her when she took herself off Cipralix in one go and became unrecognisable.

I believe that a trauma can bring about a breakdown which time could heal like it did with someone else in my family over a period of 5 months who refused every scrap of medication.  I believe that counselling and alternative things like the oils, oxygen that Dr Tracy recommends, meditation and exercise – most importantly correct diet and peaceful environment are so important to get better.  Elizabeth is not alone and there are so very many in the same situation and stuck in the system – the forgotten people, people that the Government does not care about at all.  Even the press is afraid to print stories and I have approached them several times.  The complaints system is biaised and unfair and so is the legal profession – all of this means that this abuse is allowed to continue and people are dying as a result of these awful drugs that should be banned. 

This hospital has better facilities than at local level and I was pleased to hear today that she had been given the opportunity to work in their on-site shop but I had never doubted her capabilities and she is very artistic.  On the local ward on a previous occasion I went over their heads to book a floristry course and you should have seen the wonderful things she made there – even the staff wanted to buy the displays and the psychiatrist had to admit HE WAS WRONG.  It is not often someone in the profession admits they are wrong and I respect anyone who is brave enough to admit it or to stand up for what they think is right when the vast majority are only concerned for themselves and their jobs.

There are one or two I respect in the team but I think personally that it is not drugs that are the answer but correct care and diet/nutritian and counselling play an important part, not to mention animals.  The care should be improved at local level and there is huge room for improvement at this hospital.  I do not like to see animals caged in but this is RIDICULOUS ABUSE.  YOU SHOULD SEE WHAT THIS PLACE IS LIKE WITH HIGH FENCES AROUND.   IF THE PATIENTS WERE HAPPY THERE THEN THERE WOULD NOT BE THE NEED FOR THESE HIGH PRISON LIKE FENCES AND BESIDES IF THEY ARE VIOLENT AND AGGRESSIVE THEN IT IS THE DOCTORS PLYING THEM WITH DRUGS THAT CAUSE THIS BECAUSE THEY ALTER THE SEROTONIN LEVELS AND HAVING READ DR TRACY’S BOOK ANYONE WOULD SURELY BE CONVINCED THAT THESE DRUGS ARE NO GOOD AND MAKE SOMEONE PREVIOUSLY PLACID VIOLENT AND WHEN THE CREATOR OF THESE DRUGS DR CANDACE PERT WRITE AS TO HOW ALARMED SHE IS WHY DO NOT MORE PROFESSIONALS LISTEN.   THEY ARE IN DENIAL AND DO NOT CARE AS LONG AS THEY HAVE THEIR JOBS AT THE END OF THE DAY.  I COULD NOT HAVE DONE MORE THAN DRAW TO THE ATTENTION THE DANGERS OF THESE DRUGS AND INTEND TO TAKE THE NEXT CARERS GROUP MEETING BY STORM.

 

   

 

Went to the most fabulous party – like a wedding the other evening.  The party was a birthday party held by my work colleague and attended by 150 people – one of the best parties I have been to.

Did not see Elizabeth yesterday as rest of family visiting.

Beautiful day today so am going to leave now and get over by public transport.

31st May is the assesment but I have not been served papers for court or anything as the local team are keen to replace me as closest relative.  I am nothing up against these teams that bully people into submission and will be glad to see the back of me as closest relative as I have complained about their care which has been awful.

 

Care should not be just about medication and this has not worked for Elizabeth –  often rape/abuse victims are put on medication instead of receiving counselling.  They are then labelled with serious conditions that bring about it huge benefits to psychiatrists and supporting teams as it provides ongoing work and huge money to the pharmaceutical industry by enforcing the drugging of patients with these mind-altering drugs that have the same effect as LSD and which you cannot easily get off. 

 

The assessment due on 31st of May I believe is to discuss funding issues but all I want is for Elizabeth to be moved on somewhere else rather than that awful place where she is so unhappy and where she was covered in bruises and all I have got out o the lead nurse is “I am happy with that”.  Also I fear for her safety as they have allowed the most unsuitable visitor from the local area who whilst on a Section 3 was allowed to roam freely and pop over to my home, resulting in my next door neighbours being threatened – in fact Police were involved as they received a death threat.  This man has been allowed to visit on the ward at the Royal Bethlem Hospital with all their security!

If they take away my responsibility of being nearest relative, who will I be replaced with?  Could this mean they are trying to get away with paying as outside of the local area whereever the nearest relative lives could be reponsible for funding?  Either way it will be a triumph for them as they do not like me.  I have been slagged off so many times in the files and called a cruel abd abusive mother when in fact I have challenged their care and they do not like it.  

 

An imprisonment can last for years and years under the mental health in England. What starts as a section III can last forever and there is a much more stricter environment here than locally – more controlling but the one thing is that they still want to give yet more drugs against a patient’s wishes which is terrible.   I know of such cases and I am afraid for Elizabeth because the team hate me and have written terrible things about me in the files which I got to see.

 

For instance, at local level, they have questioned my daughter about home and family and assumed the home and family was abusive and that I was a cruel mother who hit her as a child.  I have a younger daughter too and showed her this and when questioned Elizabeth was very angry and denied saying those things.  I believe such comments had been taken out of context and how can a professional comment without seeing the family home and without listening to others in the family to find out more.

 

I have also been compared to by so many “I know how you feel, I am a mother myself”.  It is one thing being a mother of a normal healthy child but Elizabeth once was normal and healthy herself but since being put on first of all anti-depressants instead of receiving counselling she has suffered such huge change in her personality and has bouts of aggression like never ever before.  I knew nothing about these drugs at the time and thought it was a good thing that she had taken herself off the anti-depressants in one go just before a trip of a lifetime abroad but unfortunately I have found out now just how dangerous the drugs are and how any withdrawal needs to be done slowly and gradually and what they do is up the dosage when the effects are wearing off.  The anger in patients at being imprisoned in a dreadful environment is understandable.  At weekends there is nothing to do and hardly any visitors to the ward to see the patients.  They are stuck in for the most part and although are taken out for walks it is not enough in my opinion and wrong to punish such people when it is the drugs themselves that are the cause and  it is far easier to keep a patient on them than take them off and it is bound to fail if you take them off in a large dosage rather than miniscule amounts daily. At local level medication was skipped on occasions when visiting family when she had forgotten it or there was not time to ask and this is harmful and yet locally they felt it was OK to do this.  

 

Anyway I am not visiting today as her father is but the latest situation is such that a section is automatically given again but they want to do it for six months which is a section III and is against Elizabeth’s wishes and I have had the most pushy phone calls from members of the local team and threatening too to the extent they have threatened to replace me as nearest relative with someone else if I did not agree.  This was too short notice for me to give an answer as I needed to think carefully about it and get legal advice and I work full time  so how could I do that effectively whilst receiving a call in the office at the end of the day last Wednesday and early evening and then again on Friday and I still could not say yes or no but hinted that I did not want to be replaced and still needed to get advice as it takes time to do this.  I know they are threatening to take me to court and Elizabeth knows this and is upset.   It would really suit the team if I was displaced and then they could just do what they like.

 

The fact it something happened to my daughter bad in that scheme and they are desperate not to disclose this or what really happened when all her possessions when missing and how come the police were constantly looking for my missing daughter in the company of a violent Section 3 patient who has been to visit in her current ward.

 

Is this reason enough to ban me because I have researched the medication and know how harmful they are.  I am still waiting to h ear from the FDA and they have not replied to me.

 

I have not mentioned my daughter’s name or the name of the local authority but am very critical of a system that does not listen or care to listen to individuals and sticks together like glue when there is a complaint and noone has the power to intervene.  There are many people suffering the same way I am but what would make me happy more than anything would be to see her discharged to the correct placement away from this area like that I have mentioned and I know more than any of them being her mother what would make her happy and obviously she would like to come home and live – so much for them saying the home and family is bad – noone would say “I want to come home, Mum” if they were not happy would they?  at the end of the day she needs to be stabilied and taken off the drugs in a proper and decent manner like Dr Ann Blake Tracy documents and it could take a year to successfully do that.  Yes I agree with the current Psychiatrist that the hospital is not the place for her on a long term basis but with orthomolecular care and proper nutrition and diet there is still hope.   Left to eat junk food and dumped into a scheme that doe snot have adequate supervision or whose staff did not always engage with her, then she will only go downhill.  I hope that is not what they are planning or maybe jthey are planning for me never to see my daughter again and they have the powers to do this and this is where I would look for justice outside of this country as I feel the law fails to protect familiies in such situation and that there should be more support and assistance for the mentally ill who sadly beg to return to hospital as they cannot cope in the community despite a scheme that is supposed to offer 24hr care.

 

Each time I visit Elizabeth asks about her pet kitten and asks to go to Finland as she has happy memories there before she got plied with all these terrible mind-altering drugs that have the same effect as LSD.

Anyway I am not visiting today as the rest of the family are and instead I am going to a party.  It is a long time I have had a happy occasion to go to and I am really looking forward to it.  I could not decide what to wear for this occasion and will wear an evening dress I think.  It is a colleague’s party and sounds wonderful.

 

Meanwhile my younger daughter is enjoying herself working for a leading cruise liner.  I would like to take Elizabeth or to pay for her and a nurse to go aboard.  I do not now know if this will be possible.  I will no longer be invited to any meetings or included in anything if I am no longer the closest relative that is for sure but I have not yet said yes or no and if I was to say yes then  it is awful to think I am being forced into this situation and that it is against what Elizabeth wants as she is happy to continue her treatment until a suitable placement can be found.  If all this could have been done sooner by the local team then none of this would have happened and the reason I am upset is that the team have ignored Elizabeth’s wishes.  That is why I have been outspoken and critical of the “care”.  Now I am going to get ready.  I am going to write tomorrow some interesting informative facts about mental health sections.

 

 

 

 

  

 

I cannot think of a better description to describe the ward where my daugher is on now run by the NHS.

Patients are trapped like prisoners in a system that is controlled by professionals who can further control things by altering medication levels throwing someone off balance completely and then imposing sanctions – this is what has happened.  When you switch a medication to another it throws a patient’s behaviour off balance and they can become psychotic. 

Elizabeth was beginning to settle down but of coure the Tribunal did not go ahead last week and now the Section 2 is coming to an end this week.  The social worker is away and so is the Consultant Psychiatrist and a replacement social worker is dealing with matters.

 

Late yesterday whilst at work I received a call stating that the team felt she should be put on Section 3 which is for 6 months or up to 6 months.    Elizabeth was not happy with this and did not give consent so they turned to me as the nearest legally representative and put me on the spot and I had to come out of my office to speak to her.   I refused this permission and then she told me they would just go over my head and replace me as the legal representative/guardian and take away everything from me.  This is how they control people and destroy families – it has happened to several of my friends and they even put a stop to one visiting.

 

I thought this section would be lifted as Elizabeth’s behaviour was OK but yesterday she was very very distressed and was talking in a distressed manner.  Maybe something had happened there.

 

I have had no response from my complaint and it has been 2 weeks now and they have not said yes in accordance with Elizabeth’s agreement to let the family see her files to check on medication as I appointed an Orthomolecular Psychiatrist and she was doing so well on the supplements and he was going to reduce her gradually on the minimum of medication and I actually saw an improvement.  They claim to be giving the supplements but all I get is a once a week phone call from the lead nurse who cannot give me any information despite giving them so many consent letters and one on official paper to satisfy them.  Now noone is speaking and I am up against a wall of silence.

 

The solicitor herself was one recommended by the hospital and was saying you dont have to go through with the meeting and they seemed so pally – her and the rest of the team laughing and joking and surrounding my daughter who they took down the corridor away from me. 

 

Clearly this is a team who want to destroy the relationship between myself and my daughter as I thought this was a leading hospital who would care to listen but they just want to experiment further with drugs yet they have more resources to do other things besides.  No mention has been m ade about the oils I brought on to the ward – nothing whatsover or neither has any mention been said about the way they took Elizabeth off a huge amount of medication throwing her off balance yet I had brought tapes, books etc onto the ward to show them.  They clearly dismissed these and all the information on lawsuits.  I have ordered the book Molecules of Emotion by one of the creators of thse drugs, Candace Pert.   

 

I would have been so happy if they had just transferred her to somewhere else but now they have to fight for funding from a local authority who is currently wasting over £800 a week on an empty flat.

I think it has been  agreed she cannot go back to this flat where she complained of having suffered tremendously and when I turned up there was drugs squad and sapphire team there so I got to find out and she had gone missing.   They placed her wrongly in a scheme where there was not much supervision and she was extremely unhappy and left to go downhill and they kept on placing her 8 times back into that scheme until finally the place came up at this hospital who I truly thought could do something good but they have just plied more drugs and wasted no time in doing so.    There are pitiful sights on that ward and people of all races and religions. At the weekends Elizabeth looks forward to my visits and I take her out but othr patients do not get many visitors as their families live too far in some cases.

These are the victims of the pharmaceutical industry.

So today I have been given no notice – received no letter and told nothing that this important meeting is to take place and they are just going to overrule everything yet Elizabeth would have remained there voluntarily until a placement could be found.  I was told this by 2 phone calls late afternoon and early evening when I was at the hairdressers in front of other people and of course I got upset when told they would replace me.

On Wednesday I went to House of Commons hoping to see someone else as my MP has written to say he cannot help me.  I saw the MP of the area of the Maudesley in Kent and he also told me the same thing but was sympathetic.  When I criticised the law and said she was a victim of crime in the first instance – abuse from someone not in the family but whom the family thought was respectable and much much older than her.  There was a ful investigation and a stop was put on him contacting her yet this was done all too late – quite some time later by which time Elizabeth had been drugged up and experimented on.

Whey cant they allow her to have Orthomolecular care when research has proven that diet is so very important and patients can be reduced off medication this way with the correct diet and supplements.

I am happy for Elizabeth to move away from the dreadful local area where we live – also there is someone else in my family who has suffered tremendously at the hands of local care but I cannot mention anything just yet about this.

The local area are responsible for the funding but why could they not provide £100 a week storage for her few possessions – the most valuable having been stolen at this scheme and the scheme would not allow police to see CCTV – no proper investigation has been made.

 

Now I have been put on the spot to say yes otherwise they could just take away my representation of my daughter legally and replace me – probably with someone from the hospital itself and that is how evil the system is. 

Forcing a patient against their wishes to take drugs for what – multiple diagnoses two conflicting as for Aspergers they do not give all these medications and that is what a leading expert has diagnosed her with but the rest say she has Schizophrenia but I would say she is suffering psychosis as a direct result of the drug Seroquel and switching from one to another – this has caused her condition and her to be unwell.

Today is an important day when a decision will be made to control my daughter – what kind of care is this.   In a nicer setting and surround she could have improved and got better like this wonderful centre for women only that has been highly praised by a former resident where she lived who was a rape victim.  It would have done her good to get right away from this area and made a fresh start.   Now they want to keep her prisoner and they could not even protect her from someone who visited who she met on a local mixed ward and who has threatened my neighbours and police have been involved.  This person has been allowed to visit there and at local level this person is well known to police who can “quite understand how I feel yet it was funny that she kept going missing with this person and each time police were called by me, police time was wasted including a time she was voluntary on the ward locally and staff refused to phone police to let them know she was missing.  I later found out she was with him.  I believe local team staff knew where she was each time and the police let it slip she was with him.  Whilst out with him which seems to have been encouraged despite the fact he was on Section 3, she was not properly  taking her medication.  On this medication it completely blocks the memory and this is why some patients simply do not take it – they have no recollection of time – cannot get to appointments etc etc and thisis where a team is supposed to step in and protect that person.

 

THEY HAVE FAILED IN MY OPINION AND TWO FIRMS OF SOLICITORS SAID

HAD FAILED IN THEIR DUTY OF CARE YET THE HEALTHCARE COMMISSION AT THE TIME CALLED THE CARE SATISFACTORY.

The letters I received from both offices were of course disappointing  but not surprising.  Prince Charles’s office said he had no plans to talk about the mental health right now and 10 Downing St referred me to Dept of Health but I have already written to them who referred me to local complaints level and this is no good.  Have obtained some wonderful advice though from an organisation called Avma (Action Against Medical Accidents).  It is hard to find legal representation for matters of mental health and this is very wrong.   These are the most vulnerable people who often get abused and do not receive good care.

Anyway the weekend was spent going out to two different beautiful shopping areas and I must say the area is much nicer than where we live.

Funding is coming to an end now and I am worried what will happen.  Where will Elizabeth go?  I believe she needs to get away from this local area and be in a very nice quiet and peaceful location where there is more one to one care at least for a while before being put back into society as she really wants a place of her own but she will need help as the care has made her totally dependant on the team and also I would like Orthomolecular care and continuation of the supplements to be given as they are right now in hospital.

Dr Tracy sent me some wonderful oils which I took on the ward and hopefully this will be included in her treatment.

 

Apart from the wonderful centre I have seen in the States called EArth House, there is a place over here that is supposed to be very good and for women only that offers counselling and more therapy and this is what Elizabeth needs rather than the drugs.   I hope she will be on the very minimal of drugs and one day come off altogether as I know this is possible.  I have always disputed the diagnoses of which she has several and there is nothing to prove these diagnoses.

I have not had a chance to devote to advertising my website but hope to put more effort into this as time goes on.  I need signatures for my petition to see Mr Lansley and so will go once a week after work to see if I can get some signatures to add to those already obtained.

I have just written to the Commissioning Office in the local areaa – I have requested a beautiful centre set in a small countryside village which although a distance from this area may be just what Elizabeth needs – a fresh start.   Coming home may not be the best option as she has been made to become dependant on the team and I would like her to be independant.

 

 

  

  

They mixed the Seroquel with Olanzapine and this threw Elizabeth’s behaviour off balance and then they sectioned her giving only 3 hrs and I was told I would be arrested if I did not bring her back in good time. 

Then they put her on a Section 2 which is for 28 days and noone told me about this Tribunal except at the very last minute I found out.  It was obvious that I was not wanted there. 

I managed to get a day off work to attend and got there early.  I sat in the lounge reading Dr Tracy’s book and I showed it to some of the team as there were some interesting paragraphs in there.  The Consultant Psychiatrist came up to me and I showed him the dvd from Dr Tracy how to come off the medication properly – I had much more information but he did not want to see all of this.  Anyway he jokingly said “You’re not going to shout at me are you?”  well I never shouted in the first place and I have a witness to that effect.  Any mother would get upset to see their child being poisoned by these so called experts which could lead to death and eventual ill health physcially when there is no scientific evidence of anything.  The diagnoses are apparently voted on and end up in a manual called the DSM. I have a dvd full of laughing psychiatrists and pharmacists who work together in plying patients with harmful drugs.  So I met the solicitor of my daughter for the first time and then she came up to my daughter and said “do you really want to go through this today” and of course she said “no”.  She is bound to find such meetings stressful but the cruel part about it is that every Friday there is a meeting and I bet she has to attend this whether or not she likes it.  OUtnumbered by the team of so called professionals a vulnerable patient who often does not have an advocate present is weak and domineered by the team and already chemically brainwashed.

The other thing is in front of Elizabeth the solicitor gave me the option of contesting the section and discharging my daughter which would of course cost me money.  I turned around and said to her that first of all they needed to get her off the drugs as she has been very very unstable and it was decided that home was not an option and yet here was this solicitor puttiing the ball in my court and saying it would cost me to do this. 

Whilst I would be prepared to have her home again first of all she needs to come off the drugs that cause the psychosis and this has NOTHING TO DO WITH DIAGNOSES OF WHICH SHE HAS FOUR.  They are not prepared to do this so it seems despite their expertise.  The Solicitor then said that Finland which Lynsey told me she wanted to go to was a bad idea and not an option because of the language barrier.  I told her that language was no barrier over there as they all spoke English.  Besides Elizabeth has been over to Finland before and was very very happy there.  This was at a time when she was not drugged up to her neck and she enjoyed going out there with her college and working in restaurants as it was her ambition to be a chef one day.  She has been constantly talking about Finland and unlike this country they are supposed to have unique care for the mentally ill in a place called Tornio which I have been trying to find out about.  The whole place is a far cry from this country – peaceful clean, healthy living – I have not been there myself but have  heard from my daughter a bit about the lifestyle and am very very impressed.  I h ad been trying to find out about prices of the care for my daughter as there is NO DECENT CARE OVER HERE IT IS ALL DRUG PUSHING UNDER THE NHS.    So, the solicitor just ruled this out without a thought of consideration when all along it was Elizabeth’s idea and what she wanted and all I am doing as a mother is backing her.  There is no way that I could force her to do what she did not want to do but unlike this team I listen.

So, I was told there would not be the funding yet around £800 a week right now is being wasted on an empty flat which I  hope they will not place her back in as eight times from there she got admitted into hospital and what was obvious did not appear to be obvious to the so called professionals in the team and I mean social services who did nothing about the situation.

In today’s paper is a case of a young man who has been murdered by someone diagnosed with Schizophrenia – the person diagnosed with this illness had not taken medication and the home got criticised badly.  Whether or not anyone has been labelled with a serious illness such as this they would suffer from psychosis as a direct result of the drug if they took themselves off it too quickly and this is what the Consultant Psychiatrist did for my daughter.  Dr Tracy said “it is a cruel game they play” – meaning it gives them greater reason for sanctions and by sanctions I mean control by way of section.    I do not believe in any of these illnesses having seen the collection of dvds I got.  Yes they may be from the Scientologists but why were they paid off in such a significant amount and what is more I believe they are right to highlight what is going on and there are interviews from some professionals willing to openly admit everything and joke aout it.  These dvds cannot be dismissed and certainly not those from Dr Tracy who has NOTHING to do with the CCHR whatsoever and has done extensive research as detailed in her book.

Many times Elizabeth has said he feels she has no choice but to go along with the team and they know this.   It is predicted in the Bible and a warning given which I will write about next time. time.  Anyway still on a section nothing was achieved and I went into a room with the solicitor and lead nurse.  I got to find out that the funding was only for 3 months and what a waste of time this has been .  Nothing whatsoever has been achieved and nothing has been done properly as there was not the drug free period as promised. Therefore I cannot accept any further diagnoses.   The solicitor who was recommended by the hospital social worker should be totally independent but some of the things she came out with did not appear so.  She defended the right by law to give medication so I turned around and said that none of us in the family believed in her diagnosis and there was a conflict of opinion by experts and if she had the other condition – ASpergers then she should not be on the drugs and I felt that this was very relevant to point out along with her human rights being abused.

The lead nurse tried to say “what if my daughter had changed her  mind and was happy on the medication”  – THIS IS TOTAL MANIPULATION –  IF SHE COMES OUT AND SAYS THIS, I WILL KNOW FOR SURE THEY HAVE BEEN BADGERING HER TO COMPLY WITH THEIR DEMANDS.  I put in for a request for the file and all the family want to see this file as we are so very concerned about the drugs being plied.

 

She was given a little bit of information about the drug but it nowhere near goes into what I have printed off which includes the research by Professor Healy stating that this particular drug had the highest rate of suicide out of all of them.  Also Dr Tracy says it has a bad reputation for diabetes.   Of course the team just ignore this and carrying on pushing the drugs at patients.  I feel so sorry for all of them as I know it is done on a trial and error basis and that people get wrongly diagnosed as there are not tests and in any case drugs are not the answer – if there was decent care like counselling attention to diet etc then this is the answer but of course there is no money to be made in this at all.  There is huge money to be made in  having a lifetime patient on these drugs you cannot just come off where they have no help unlike illicit drugs.

IT IS DISGUSTING ABUSE IN MY OPINION.

As for care in the community – this is equally bad.  The social worker from the local team attended the meeting and said that whilst my daughter talked in a disturbed manner about burning her scheme down, she would not actually carry this out.  UNFORTUNATELY THIS WOMAN HAS NOT A CLUE WHAT SHE IS TALKING ABOUT.  IF MY DAUGHTER IS PLACED UNDER THAT SCHEME AGAIN AND I AM WATCHING WHAT IS GOING ON I WILL NAME THE SCHEME.  This is the scheme that banned me from visiting my daughter because there was an incident at home – I have nothing to hide by talking about this.  Every single time Elizabeth came home she did not want to go back to this scheme as something bad happened to her.  Also she has had all her valuable possessions stolen and nothing has been done about it.  There must be evidence on the CCTV but the scheme as far as I know have not released it to Police and I am furious about how much she  has lost which amounts to hundreds.  The social worker tried on two occasions to try and persuade her to take Clozapine and thi shas nothing to do with social services and I confronted her when I got to find out.

The scheme is occupied by mentally ill residents but unfortunately they are supposed to offer 24 hr care but staff actually sleep through the night and there is no way of monitoring who is coming into the building.  In other words lapse security.  Anyone could come in whilst staff are asleep.  This is no place for someone vulnerable like my daughter and besides the music thumping from another resident was disturbing Elizabeth.  In the evenings she would be alone and vulnerable and there was nothing to do then.  Once a week she did get taken out somewhere however she did not engage with the staff and told them to go away.  She was not doing even basic tasks and this is why the scheme was UNSUITABLE.  What was lacking was some young decent companions and instead to the knowledge of the team  they turned a blind eye to her association with wrong kinds like the foreign man who turned up at my neighbour’s house mistaking it for mind demanding money and theatening my neighbours who had to call the police.  This friendship was allowed to continue to the point she was going missing all the time and this person was on a Section 3 by the way and allowed out unescorted.  I got to hear of this because I was told by police he had actually gone missing from a ward. When I complained I got a response stating it was down to human rights whilst they recognised their duty of care to my daughter.  Words to this effect – what rubbish!  The public have a right to be protected and there is tremendous lack of supervision with the mentally ill in the community. 

 

Today there is an article about a man who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia who did not take his medication but there were times when Elizabeth refused her medication and if aggressive then staff would simply just stay away from her and noone from the home treatment team came to see her.  The only way to get into hospital is to be arrested and this is an absolute disgrace.

It is laughable that this man who threatened my neighbours is allowed to visit my daughter on the ward at the Royal Bethlem Hospital so I got to find out – I am pretty sure the staff and social services know that he is in touch with my daughter.  Also it was a joke at this meeting to listen to the team saying how generous it is of them to allow 6 hrs now for visiitng.   I just could not believe it – I told them she should never have been sectioned in the first place because if things had been done properly with the medication none of this behaviour would have occurred.  

 By the way, the other thing is that there was no control by staff with money.  One day she went out and spent all her money leaving nothing for food.

 

This was was once a girl who was immaculate and going to college, studying languages, learning to drive, working and now she is totally dependent on the team.  This is care for you under the NHS.

 

I tried so hard to ensure that Elizabeth did not end up like the other patients just lying around doing nothing and sleeping whist drugged up to their necks on LSD-like mind altering anti-psychotics.  Yes it is like LSD – that would explain why Elizabeth has hallucinations and if she is hearing voices now she never was in the first place and was getting on nicely with her life.  Having her home would be risky whilst on these drugs as patients suffer from a sleep disorder that causes them to act our their nightmares.  This is all caused by the drug not by their condition in my opinion.

  

 

 

 

 

  

The patients on the ward are mostly young.  I see from the visitor’s books they hardly get any visitors so even though I work full time and am very busy I make the effort to go and visit Elizabeth.  I appreciate that people are sent to the hospital from all over the country and so relatives are not always so easily able to visit but I am lucky in that respect living in the London area.   The area is quite beautiful and we go to a very nice shopping centre nearby and to lunch.  The Queen is visiting this shopping centre tomorrow morning.

Today we went to a Mexican restaurant and looked around the fabulous shopping centre and then went to the cinema but I did not like the film and it was not suitable for Elizabeth to see so we did not stay for very long.  I try to pick something cheerful and a comedy but this was full of violence and totally unsuitable despite a member of staff saying it was a comedy.

I have bought a car this weekend and will pick it up next weekend.  It has not been easy not having a car and buses are not so quick.

Today was a beautiful sunny day and it is sad to see so many young patients couped up on a ward with tight security like prison.  This is no way to treat a human being.

My view is that they have not done the assessment correctly as she was promised a drug free period and this is very  bad.  They have just miixed one drug with another and this one Olanzapine has the highest rate of suicide.   I am far from happy and neither are the rest of the family and have requested the files.   To all patients – it is a good thing to see what is going on in the files especially when I discovered so many diagnoses. This prompted me to look at matters further.

It is so bad what is going on and care is centred on medication.  The medication does not solve the problems and can lead to psychosis and violent behaviour amongst other things.

The other thing that is bad is care in the community.  These schemes do not suit everyone and Elizabeth was very wrongly placed.  I also believe that she has been misdiagnosed but is very ill because of the drugs themselves.

 

 

 

  

The campaign by Occupy London who organised a huge demonstration in the City today is pretty much along the same lines as mine.  If there was fairness in society then it would not be necessary to stage such protests but I have to say that I was impressed by the way this was organised and by the friendliness and helpfullness of people attending towards my similar cause.   The similarities lie in money and greed and a Government out of touch with what society needs.  There is much unemployment and much poverty and a Government who does not care and thinks nothing of spending a fortune on wars.   If this Government only took an interest in the apalling state of mental health care that would be wonderful but instead they choose not to respond to my letters time and time again and do NOTHING.  Anyway I am very grateful to those who signed my petition whilst I attended the protest organised by Occupy London.  I am told I need at least 500 signatures .  Anyway I have a long way to go before I get that many but it is a start – I had to cut short my visit there as I had to be at the hospital.  However I am posting my petition on this site so anyone please feel free to add your names to this.  I intend to gain more signatures on a week by week basis and working in Central London is very handy for this purpose. 

 I brought along to show people more of the interesting information I have obtained including DVDs and books.  There is one very interesting one called “The Marketing of Madness – there is no money in normal”  How true.   Dr Tracy has also supplied me with a lot of interesting cds.  I only wish that I had known about how harmful these drugs were in the first instance. 

 I met some interesting people at the demonstration and one lady mentioned about a sanctury for animals – I told her how the hospital was – not fit for animals where my daughter is currently.  I do not like the huge high fences and prison like atmosphere.  It is truly shocking.

However, I also met a journalist who seemed quite interested and I would be willing to give publicity in the hope that things get improved.  It is not just for my daughter but for many others who have noone to speak up for them.   

I had to cut short my visit unfortunately as I had to go to visit  my daughter and to allow enough time as many train lines were affected by engineering works today and my car has now been written off by the looks of things and I had to get another one but spotted a nice car near to where my daughter is in hospital.

 

Tomorrow the younger daughter who one was so desperately ill and now on top of the world thanks to me getting her off anti-psychotics is flying out to Venice to work for 6 months on a luxury cruise liner.

 

The rest of the family gained the support of my daughter to see the medical files as we just do not know what is going on and noone is prepared to discuss anything with you unless you have signed consent which I have obtained.

 

Tomorrow I will go again to the hospital to visit as Elizabeth wants to go to the cinema.

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